Sunday, April 30, 2006
Saturday, April 29, 2006
Friday, April 28, 2006
Thursday, April 27, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
Monday, April 24, 2006
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Welcome to Spring in the Pacific Northwest...:) Went for a drive today and did some serious thinking. I've made some decisions and goals. I really don't want to post the one major goal I have set. At least not yet. I want to be fully and totally sure it is something I can accomplish. I believe I can but still want to do more research on it. Once I get all of my ducks in a row with it...I'll post what it is I have set for myself. I got a movie on Friday. So far I have watched it 3 times this weekend. LOL Yes...it's a chick flick. What can I say? I'm a sap when it comes to romance. I don't have it in my own life so I can live it through movies. Much safer that way. Feelings don't get hurt and it's over in a couple of hours. :) I can handle that. As we all know....tomorrow is Monday. I won't get started on my thoughts about that...:)
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Friday, April 21, 2006
I'm goin' to POTO...I'm goin' to POTO!!! It's official. Sabrina and I are going to be seeing Phantom this summer. Can you color me excited??? Well duh....of course. I'm tellin' ya...it's going to be a GREAT summer!!! :)
While in the process of purchasing my flowers last night there was a nice lady in front of me who had purchased some slate rocks. They looked like they would be cool stepping stones. I'm heading my flat butt back over to H0me Dep0t tomorrow and buy 3 of them. At less than $6.00 apiece....I can afford it. I only need 3 so it won't break my bank.
Thursday, April 20, 2006
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
Well this sucks!!! *stealing a phrase from the penguins in Madagascar* It is almost 11:30pm and who is still awake? ME!!!!!!!! Care to guess why? Yep...I didn't have my pineapple drinky poo. Either that or I didn't work in my yard enough. Maybe a little bit of both. ;) Ya know there are days when I really want to post about something really good happening in my life but I'm terrified that once I do...it will go away. Let's just say that I had given up hope of there being any decent Christian men out there...trust me when I say that even Christian men can be schmucks and a$$es just like non-Christians...sometimes they are worse!!! My hope is slowly being restored. Just when you think God has given up on you or turned His back...He smiles down on you. Makes me feel awful for being...well I don't know what I was being but I didn't like it. Icky feeling lingered for awhile. Icky feeling is going away. Just like the thing with Darren this week. God knew I couldn't handle the truth 2 years ago. Why He chose now I'm not too sure. Maybe because He knows I'm strong enough and can deal with it better than I could have then. It's wierd not thinking of Darren as someone I used to love. He is more like an accquaintance. I certainly never thought I would feel that way about him. It felt like I was finally released the other night. Now I can truly find someone...or maybe I already have. ;) You just never know...well maybe I do and I'm not telling. *sticking my tongue out* Don't you love it when I do that, Sabrina? *waiting for the email from her to say "OK...SPILL IT!!!"* I know her too well. LOL All of the nonsense with Kim no longer bothers me. The sheer absurdity of it causes no concern for me. There is a concern right now but I will post more about that later. Actually it will be posted in my venting blog...if you wish to read it....just let me know. :)
It counts, sings colors, plays classical music. They will be able to hang it on the crib, stroller, baby carrier or he can hold it and just play with it. I'm digging this. Get to spoil him and then send him back to his mommy and daddy. Perfect. :) I'm going to buy one thing every payday. That will give him 5 LeapFrog toys and the quilt I'm going to be making. The toy I bought yesterday is for 3+ months. The next one will be 9+ months and so on. Yes...he is going to be spoiled.
My mom and dad are going to be up here visiting with us in June. Mom said she would bring her sewing machine so I can work on the baby quilt. She said she never uses it so I may as well use it. :) I love my mom. She said that Heather has a baby bump now and looks so cute. They have been discussing names but haven't decided yet. I'm so excited about being an Aunt. :)
Once I get the quilt done I'll post it just like I have posted K's bedroom pics. LOL Kidding...I'll get some pics done of the room when it's totally done. I still have the valance to hang up. Once I do that...I promise you will see how gorgeous it is.
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
Sunday, April 16, 2006
Saturday, April 15, 2006
There is a storm heading our way. Would you believe it's supposed to snow tonight??? Snow on Easter. How odd would that be?
Even watching the crucifixtion of Christ as a cartoon it still brings tears to my eyes. I am so unworthy of what He went through for me. Well not just me but all of mankind. I saw The Passion last year and that is when I realized I needed to turn my life around. I was making a serious mess of things so I gave it all back to God. My life has had it's ups and downs this past year. More good than bad but I will be the first to admit that the bad was horrible. I've been betrayed, treated like dirt and "spit upon" by people who I thought were friends. It was very difficult for me to go through all of it but I held true to my faith and love for Christ and came out on the other side a better person. I don't believe I could have without Him. He cleaned house for me....so to speak.
I still have my days of where I feel lost and wonder where God is in all of this. I still question from time to time but I know He is still with me and will never betray me. With all He went through for me...grateful does not even begin to describe how I feel.
Happy Easter everyone!!! He is Risen!!! :)
Friday, April 14, 2006
Thursday, April 13, 2006
Oh it's no use I can't unlove you
When a person comes into your life for a season, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. S/he may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. S/he may teach you something you have never done. S/he usually gives you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Lifetime relationships teach you lifetime lessons. Those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. You must accept the lesson, love the person/people anyway, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.
The above came to my mind this morning after I chatted with Sabrina. A friend of Sabrina's is in the hospital and cannot be off of her oxygen for any amount of time. She was on the list for a lung transplant and they have taken her off as she is no longer a candidate. Her breathing problems are causing a strain on her heart. I know Sabrina pretty well...Ok I know her very well. She is beating herself up for not spending more time with her friend and she should have taken more time to go visit with her. I can understand why Bean is thinking this way. Her friend is probably pretty close to the end of her life. Bean does not want to lose someone who has been a wonderful friend to her. I've met this woman and she is a wonderful person and I would have been blessed to have her as a friend just as Sabrina has been blessed.
All of this has caused me to really think about friendships and what do they really mean. They are one of the most important relationships we will ever have in our life. Not all friends stick around though. The reason, season, lifetime thing hit me like a ton of bricks this morning. I have been blessed with so many lifetime friends and I thank God they love me for all that I am.
I was thinking about the reason friends and season friends. I have been so blind to what kind of friendship I had with Kim. I didn't see that she was a reason friend. She came into my life 10 years ago for a reason. She was a key person to my getting out of an abusive relationship and getting my life back. She was there for me no matter what when it came to needing encouragement, support and strength in this instance. I could talk to her, cry on her shoulder and she was there. No matter what time of day or night. She was my rock. Without her...I may not have gotten out when I did...if I ever would have. When I left the company we were both working for, we pretty much lost touch with each other. She moved to the other side of the state and I went on with my life. How I wish we had left it the way it was. My memories and thoughts of her would not be so muddled with anger and disgust. Kim was in my life for a reason. I realize that now. I wish I had 2 years ago.
I have my season friends. Friends who I could help with my experiences or just a sympathetic ear. I had a great friend in Wenatchee. Her name was Marina. We had a great time shopping, going out to lunch and working together. When I moved back to Yakima...we lost touch. It's ok though. We both have our lives and we have great memories of my time in Wenatchee. I cherish that.
My lifetime friends...what can I say about them that hasn't already been said? They are the ones I know I can count on in good times and bad to love me and be there. They say you can count on one hand the true honest to goodness friends you will have in a lifetime. I would have to say that I can count on two hands :) BTW...who are "they"? I've never figured that out.
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
Monday, April 10, 2006
I have said it before and I will say it again...I HATE MONDAY'S!!! I did ok the first hour of the day. I even woke up with a positive attitude. After my first hour of relative peace...it started going downhill. While cutting a bagel for the girls I took a chunk out of my thumb, while curling my hair I burned the same hand I cut, my panini had WAY too many tomatoes on it, I have to take K to the doc because she has an ear infection, K's insurance isn't a copay...it's a freaking deductible!!! It's raining, it's cold and the stupid cat hasn't had her kittens yet!!! Oh...and I need to finish the stupid laundry. I should have never gotten out of bed.
Sunday, April 09, 2006
I really hate it when this mood hits me. Tears aren't far from just doing their thing. Don't ask me why either. I've been taking my estrogen, I had a good weekend, everything is just fine. I'm just in a low spot and since I don't really know why...it bugs me. I'm watching Extrem* H*me M*keover and that is a mistake. I'm not even going to touch my book tonight. I want to be fully focused on it and right now...that is not possible. I know some of it is just being lonely. What is sad about that is I'm still not sure I'm able to be in a relationship. I know there is still some healing that needs to be done and trust to rebuild. I know that when the right guy comes along...the fears won't be there. Apparently I haven't met him yet. LOL I've been on some dates....ok every date I've been on since August 2004 qualifies for this...but something was missing on my part. Sure I could be in a relationship but there is zero chance I will be with someone just to be with someone. I don't need a man in my life to validate who I am. I know I've said it before but there are just so many people who do that. I've seen it and I've done it. Nothing but misery follows when you do that. I would rather be alone and happy than with someone and miserable. My perfect man is out there...and his name is Gerard. *GRIN* If only...*sigh* Hey...I can dream can't I?
Saturday, April 08, 2006
Thursday, April 06, 2006
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
Now if I can only find a sewing machine. I have all the pieces for a quilt for my little man but no machine to put them together. Need to start perusing the classifieds and yard sales will be starting up soon. :) Nothing will be too good for my little man...:)
He is gonna love his Aunt Tracey and I'm gonna be the coolest Aunt...well in his eyes I will be. LOL He is going to think his Aunt Tracey is all that and a bag of chips. Of course he will be my main reason for going to California now. Shhhh...don't tell my parents. ;)
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
These pics are from the Broadway show. Just thought I would throw in a little something different. Yes my friends...I'm bored. LOL
Red Death Mask - Masquerade
Can't forget my pics...:) This is my favorite part of the movie...well along with Point of No Return, Wishing you were somehow here again, All I ask of you, Think of me...Oh who am I kidding??? I Love the WHOLE MOVIE!!! Yes...I'm a Phantom Phan and proud of it. :)
Monday, April 03, 2006
While getting ready to leave for work I went to go feed Chuck...Chuck being our betta. I am saddened to say that Chuck is no longer with us. I was not pleased at this. I knew it would happen one day but I didn't want that one day to come. We have had Chuck for almost 3 years!!! *sigh*
My eyes aren't getting any better. In fact it has now gone over to my right eye lid. I'm just a mess today. Nell mentioned that it might be a dermal infection but seeing how doctors cost money and so does meds...I'm stuck with what I am doing now which is nothing. LOL If it doesn't clear up in a few days I'm sure I will have to go get it checked. For now...I deal with it. Now if the itching would just stop!!!
Now to work on putting more pics on here...:) Ah...the joys of Gerry and POTO. Speaking of POTO...when our cat has her kittens..which should be any time now...I told the girls that if she has a black one with a white face...it's mine!!! Can you guess what the name will be? Yep...Poto. LOL I know....sad huh? Hey..it's my obsession so there! ;)
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Saturday, April 01, 2006
Well my birthday has started out great. K made breakfast and it wasn't your normal cereal and toast breakfast. She made crepes folks!!! Being an 11 year old I was worried they were going to be horrible. I was wrong. They were awesome!!! I have the best kids. Why God blessed me with them I will never know but I'm not going to argue it. :) Today the plan is to go to a thrift store called The Lighthouse. Nell...this would be your kind of store. All clothes, shoes and purses are $1.00. There are some fantastic buys there. I was there yesterday and found the cutest top and I didn't buy it. I woke up this morning thinking about it so I need to buy it today. For $1.00 I can afford it. I have no clue what we are doing the rest of the day. We were going to go to another friends and hang out by the creek...they have the most AWESOME landscaped yard...but it's raining and sitting by a creek relaxing wouldn't be a good thing. Oh who cares what we do. It's my day and I'll do whatever I danged well feel like doing. :) I will let nothing ruin today...