Friday, December 29, 2006

Do not get mad at me!!!

Nothing will drive me nuts faster than people who cannot speak English getting mad at me because they can't understand what I'm trying to tell them. I work in the insurance industry. A good portion of our clients do not speak English or at least can't speak it very well. Insurance is confusing enough without adding a language barrier. Today a couple came in speaking little to no English and I didn't understand what they were wanting. I did the best I could and then told them they needed to come in and speak to our afternoon assistant. They were ticked at me and if I didn't value my job I would have gone off. I'm fed up with this crap!!! I know...I can't do much about it but it's just annoying as hell to get dirty looks because I can't speak Spanish. No matter where you go....this happens. It's getting out of hand and I just wonder when people are going to say "Enough is enough!!!" and something that is equivalent to the Civil war breaks out. I know I'm not the only one sick of it...

Ok...I'm done venting now.

Friday, December 15, 2006 is the plan...

I need to get rid of the muffin top and attempt to get a butt. Mindy sent me some suggestions on exercises too achieve those goals. Once the holidays are past...I will measure myself and put my plan into action. The hard part for me is the eating right. My diet sucks. It's not that I eat a lot of food. I just don't eat at all. I'm sitting here trying to think of when I eat and I can't come up with any specific meal. It varies. No...I don't eat 3 meals a day. I know...bad Tracey. If I were to eat 3 small meals a day AND exercise...I would be in better shape than I am in. I work just down the hall from Curves and if I could afford it...I would be there every other day. I know that exercising would put me in an amazing frame of mind...not that I'm cranky all the time but I remember that when I did exercise...I had more energy.

Ok...I have my I need the motivation. What can I use to movitate myself to get off of my flat butt (which is part of the plan to change) and make the changes I need?

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

No more muffins!!!

I am in a wedding come October 2007. I am the maid of honor. I am to wear a beautiful blue dress. I have yet to find that dress. All of the dresses I see...STRAPLESS!!! Hello...I'm old. I do not show my shoulders at all and look sexy at the same time. I need to find a sexy yet cover my flaws kind of dress. I also have muffin top has got to go. You know what muffin tops are....that little bit of flabby that pokes over your waist band. I hate my muffin top. It so totally needs to go away. I would also be quite happy with getting rid of my hips. I have a decent figure....from the neck to just above my waist. My legs aren't too bad either. It's that abdominal area and my lack of hiney that drives me nuts.

So here is my question...what type of exercises can I do....low impact...that will whittle down my hips and make the muffin top go away? I need to look good for this wedding. I won't outshine the bride but a close second will do. :)

Tuesday, December 12, 2006


Wow...change to beta and everything gets fouled up. Ah well...I guess it was time to move past the Phantom. least for awhile. ;) Pink IS my favorite color so this one will have to do for now. I really need to get back to this blog. I think I left it because someone was reading it and I didn't want her knowing much about my life. But...I do have a blog on myspace so if she wanted to read about me...she could find me there.

So...I'm coming back to my REAL blog. I'll still post on myspace but I'm still partial to this one. It's just me...:)

Tiggers are tiggeriffic...:)

I want to thank Tigger for introducing me to the dailyOM. I absolutely love the emails I get everyday from them. Most have some bearing on my life and how to view things around me. My life was so fouled up and fouled up for a very long time. After purging a lot of things out of my life...namely friends who were toxic to my mental health and well being...things are amazing now. I've found that I do not "need" to allow people to treat my like crap...just so I could have friends. I did that with a few people and I was miserable. I completely short changed myself in so many areas of my life. Men and friends being the main ones.

I'm not saying my life is perfect now. Gosh no. Far from it. What I can say is that I've found my boundries and I know when to put my foot down and say "I will not tolerate the way you are treating me". Some people from my past have not been too pleased with my new outlook and how I will accept treatment from others and they want nothing to do with me. The friends who are still around are very proud of me and see major changes in who I am.

Here is an example of how I have changed...:
Saturday I got an email from a guy who has been emailing me off and on for a month. I agreed to meet him for a drink at Black Angus. I got there before him so I ordered an iced tea (not alcohol) and waited for him. He showed up and within 2 minutes of him sitting down he started chewing me out for not returning calls or emails. I told him that I've been busy and I was sorry. He said "Sorry is a cop out!!! I want a reason why!!!" His voice was not lowered if you know what I mean. I told him that I don't have a reason why. Just life and I know it was rude and I was sorry. He still wouldn't accept that. He said that he had written me an email Friday night chewing me out and he was pissed. I told him that he should have sent it since Friday sucked for me anyway. He kept on with telling me he wouldn't accept sorry from me and was demanding a reason why. During his tirade he stopped and said "Fine...I won't say anymore because you aren't talking!" I said "I'm listening..." He told me I could then respond and what was I thinking. I said "I'm thinking I want to get up and leave". He said that he was sure I was and would I like to order some appetizers now. WTH??? HUH??? After taking a sip off of my iced tea...I said "I'm not staying...I'm leaving." I grabbed my coat and purse and walked out. I didn't even put my coat on and it was damn cold outside. I just wanted out of there. All of this happened within 10 minutes of him getting there.

Pretty impressive huh? A year ago I would have suffered through the date and put up with his crap. I was very proud of myself. Granted...I was pissed for wasting my time but at least I got up and walked out. I should have waited and ordered an expensive drink AND food....then walked out. The dumbass...

So there ya have it...the exciting world of Tracey. LOL