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Date for 5 weeks...

then you find out what assholes a person can actually be. Sorry for the language but bloody hell men are completely stupid. At least the ones I meet. Seems the apron strings he had with his ex g/f were not completely untied. She lied. He believed her. I'm out of the picture. By my choice but still...

So...while I was pissed off for awhile I have come to learn that if he is such a pansy and cannot stand up to a woman who is pathetic beyond any reason...I'm better off without him. One day I will find a fabulous man who's balls are still attached to him. :)

I've been MIA

I've been gone for awhile haven't I? No excuses can be made. Life takes over and what do you do but go along for the ride. :)

I do have some good news though...I have met a man who is completely OPPOSITE of any man I have ever dated. I'm not future tripping or getting lost in this but I believe in my heart he is the man I've been waiting for. Same values, same beliefs and ideals. He is my match in all ways. I like it...after 3 years of healing my heart and spirit...I'm ready to fall in love again. Isn't that great??? :)

Echo..echo....

Well I went in for a stress test and echocardiogram yesterday. I didn't make it 3 fricking minutes on the treadmill!!! My chest was hurting and so tight I thought I was gonna pass out. You were right Stacey...it wasn't a big deal. The worst part of it all is waiting the 5-7 days for the results. I hate waiting and have all the patience of a gnat.

Today has been a good day for me. Hardly any pain at all. I'm still really tired though. I'm thinking that laying in bed all weekend and eating bon-bon's is in order. Whadda ya think?

BTW...does anyone really know what a bon-bon is?

Not knowing is the worst

I have been in and out of the hospital this week. Reason being? Chest pain and tingling in my left arm. Not a good thing right? I didn't think so either. I got home about an hour ago from my last jaunt to the ER and here is what I know....NOTHING!!! I have had a CT scan, 2 EKG's, 2 chest xrays and multitudes of blood work done. The only thing I do know is that I have not had a heart attack. Well there is good news.

They were going to keep me tonight but the doctor finally said I could go home and that I needed to schedule an appointment a stress/echo test. Oh joy! Oh rapture! I get to go in and let them hurt me some more!!! I hate getting old. It's either that or the stress I'm dealing with from a certain spermdonor who refuses to grow up!

I'm off to bed now with my nitro patch (which by the way helps tremendously) and get some well needed sleep. *sigh*

Drama post...don't say I didn't warn you

Do you ever go back to emails you have received, read then and laugh at the aburdity of it? I got the following comment on my lovinstitch blog February 27, 2006...

"Well, well, the bitch Tracey is at it again. Wanting to slam Kim in anyway possible. Do all you want Tracey. I think everyone should know about you and your past too. Good God, where should I start, with her herpes, no, maybe with her being raped in the asshole, or about her ex-husband *there was private and highly personal stuff here and I refuse to post it* She goes on dates with men and turns them off in the first five minutes by telling them all about her past and all she has been through. She claims to be a Christian but, she has no clue what that is. No Christian would ever type these slanerous things about someone on the internet. I have one thing to say Tracey.... FUCK YOU BITCH!!!!!!!! Oh wait, there is more, she dates married men! Then gets chummy with their wife when they find out about it. How pathetic is…

I will not survive this...

Let me tell you what it is I will not survive....A TEENAGED GIRL!!! OMGOSH!!! She is starting way earlier than I ever did. She won't be 13 until October but I am already wanting to pull my hair out. Good grief...does the attitude just kick in overnight??? I thought I used to be moody. Bloody blazes she can change on a freaking dime. One minute she is sweet as pie...the next minute I may as well be satan. Now if I were the one who was making mistakes...I would accept that. To get pissed at me because she broke something of her own accord that was expensive and get mad at me because I got onto her for not taking care of her stuff? Good grief...it's going to be a loooonnnnnggggg 6 years.

Like I said...I will not survive this...at least not without a lot of vodka. LOL

Gosh it's nice...

To be blogging again!!! I've been such a recluse as of late and just didn't have much to say. Had way too much soul searching to do and figuring crap out. I was still holding on to the delusion that I could remain friends with Darren (who will from here on out be known as what's his face because the mere mention of his name makes me want to throw up). After finding out how two faced he truly is and then putting two and two together about what type of man he is which all I will say is sociopath...the rest I won't post because I don't need the grief it would cause. Those who matter know what I figured out and all are thankful for me and my girls to be away from him.

Anyway...enough of that bs. It's no longer part of my life. My life now is my kids, house, job, friends and Curt. I'll be seeing Curt again on Saturday after a day of me, my girls, JoeyLynne (a friend of mine) and her boys having our pictures taken. Joey and I are doing the "Trash tha…

Happy girl...that is me.

Ready for this? I had a date on Saturday. *gasp* Yes...I know!!! As we all know...dating scares the hell out of me. Do you know how deperately I wanted to cancel the date? I didn't and I'm so very glad I went. It was THE most amazing date I have EVER been on. Let me recap it for you...

He picked me up at 1:30 Saturday afternoon and the minute I saw him I knew I had made the right decision. Not only because he is good looking but the kindness that I saw in his eyes put me completely at ease. He brought gifts he bought in Disneyland for me and my girls, some roses, a daisy plant for my flower garden and some homemade lotions/soaps/lip balms. Talk about a surprise. No guy has ever done that.

The rest of the day was as close to perfection as a day can be. We drove north to Leavenworth and then had lunch at a little drive in called "The Heidleburger". Lunch was great and so was the company. :) From there we headed to Lake Wenatchee. It was an amazingly gorgeous day and very…

It's going to be busy...

Good grief this summer is going to be busy. Well...if the next few weekends are any indication it will be. This weekend....a concert and family portraits for my ex husband and our daughter. I won't be in the pic. LOL The following weekend...family portraits for me and my girls. ALSO...a friend and I are doing something really cool with our "wedding" gowns. What a joke that is huh? I was engaged to a sociopath and she was married to...well a creep and I'll leave it at that. Anyway...we are going to do a thing called "Trash this dress". Here is a link to show you just what we are doing. It's not only going to give us some really cool photographs but it will be quite healing and cleansing. I'm excited about doing it. Especially after figuring out just how lucky I am to have NOT gotten married to Darren. Marrying him would have caused irreversible damage to my girls and most likely ended up with me having long term accomodations in the sta…

MEMEMEMEME....

Leave it to Stacey to try and get me out of the funk I'm in. LOL Here ya go, Stace...;)

1. What were you doing 10 years ago?
Working for a car dealership that had me in tears daily. Can you say "sexual harrassment"? I knew you could.

2. What were you doing 1 year ago?
Working at the same place I am now, being deceived yet again by my ex fiance, getting stronger and stronger emotionally.

3. 5 snacks you enjoy:
I don't snack much

4. 5 songs that you know all the lyrics:
Most of the POTO soundtrack but there are a lot of songs I know the words to. LOL

5. 5 things you would do if you were a millionaire:
pay off debts, get the hell out of Yakima, set up college funds for my girls, take my single friends on shopping sprees, buy new cars for my single friends.

6. 5 bad habits:
procrastination, over analyzing issues or people, holding back tears when they are needed, cracking my knuckles, not eating

7. 5 things you like doing:
blogging, reading, yardwork, surfing myspace (that's…

I have issues....with my issues

I've not been posting. I'm so sorry. Just so much going on and my head not where it should be. Mainly medical issues. When I get it all figured out...I will be back. Just bear with me on this one. If you want to know what is going on...email me. I really feel no desire to post it here. Love ya'all...

40's are fun...photo blog of birthday fun!

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The princess has arrived!!!
I love these girls!!!
OMGOSH!!! I'm getting my first serenade. It got mighty hot in that place...LOLSee? I'll share my crown. :) Absolutely no one existed in the bar when he was singing to me.And then he kissed me...
No clue what I'm thinking here but the "I dream of Jeannie" theme comes to mind.
Only with friends can you be stupid and they still love you.It's all in the eyes...
Second group shotMe and my Sabrina. Friends for 10 years!!!
Everyone needs a friend like Joey. LOL
Awww...isn't this too cute?
My Sherri and me

I love Vickie but cripes...she is expensive!!!

Took a drive today. Drove to Kennewick which is 70 miles from Yakima. Why would I drive to Kennewick? I needed bras. Ok...I know you are asking yourself "Why is she driving 70 miles to buy bras???". I will tell you why. Yaki-hell does not have a Victoria's Secret. The Columbia Center Mall does. Hence...I drove 70 miles to buy bras.

I went into the store with the mindset of buying 2 bras. After trying on 5...I came out with 3. DAMN!!! They got me with the Angel Collection. If you have never worn a bra from the Angel Collection...I highly suggest you try them. That is like putting your boobs in a cloud. Very nice. :) I did pick up a small bottle of perfume. "Heavenly"...another one of those I highly suggest trying. When all was said and done...I was less $156. It was oh so worth it though. I love VS and nothing will make me change my mind about their bras and panties.

After leaving VS...I headed over to Bath and Body Works. I must be out of my …

Guests...

I know I have had quite a few visitors to my page. Please by all means leave a comment and let me know where you are from. I love meeting new people from new places. :)

Oops

I went to the Lighthouse yesterday. It is a thrift store where all of the clothes, shoes and purses are $1.00. I picked up 2 pairs of pants, a black sweater and 3 shirts. One of the shirts is a tank top. I wore the tank top to work today. I did not realize how low cut this tank top it. Not a top to wear to work but I'm doing pretty good with covering my cleavage with the sweater. Yes!!! I have cleavage. LOL I've never had it before. Sad thing is...I may end up losing my cleavage. Ah well...it's fun for now.

I've hit a bleh spot in life. Nothing really good happening. Nothing really bad happening. I hate that. I did have a horrible moment last night while chatting with a friend of mine. While I know he was trying to get me to smile it was starting to really irritate me. Since my views on life have changed it seems that everyone believes I need to be up all the time and never have a down moment. I'm sorry but I am human. I still get upset over thin…

The Dalai stopped it...

It is frustrating to type out a post that took darned close to an hour to compose and have it disappear into the blog abyss. Yes...that happened to me yesterday. It was a vent blog and I was livid to say the least. It was about seeing someone on Saturday that I truly don't care to ever lay eyes on again. *shudder* But...I digress into why the Dalai stopped it. Ok...I'm not saying he had anything to do with it but work with me on this.

I came into work today all bleh. I have a desk calendar on my desk...fancy that will you? It is "Insight from the Dalai Lama". What would Saturday's insight be? Let me share it...

"To be aware of a single shortcoming within oneself is more useful than to be aware of a thousand in somebody else. Rather than speaking badly about people and in ways that will produce only friction and unrest in their lives, we should preactice a purer perception of them, and when we speak of others, speak of their good qualities. If you…

What to do with the boobs...

Had my appointment today. It went as well as I could expect. There weren't any changes in the lump I have and he did find another one in my right breast. We discussed genetic testing and removing my breasts all together. I really like my doctor. He will answer my questions and take time with me to help me understand what is going on and could happen. I've set up an appointment for another mammogram on March 8th but I will also be meeting with another doctor for genetic counseling. Dr. Monson wants me to look at all paths before even considering mastectomies. He did mention tamoxofin but I want to do some research on that before I start taking more meds. I'm already on estropipate which is a hormone.

This whole thing has me a bit freaked out. I teared up abit while driving back to Sherri's but regained my composure. I don't want to lose it yet. I don't want to lose it at all. I need to be strong throughout all of this. This is my life and I've be…

Letting go

I've let go of the anger towards everyone who has hurt me. All but one. What is it about her that keeps the anger there? Why can I not forgive her? What she did to me was nothing more than an act of betrayal. Showing me that she was never in fact what someone would consider a true honest friend. Is it her that I can't forgive or is it me that I cannot forgive?

After years of throughly disliking this person I befriended her. Even against the advice of many who said she will one day stab me in the back like she has done to everyone who enters her life. I was giving her the benefit of the doubt and chose to believe there was good in her. That was not a good choice for my life. It is the one thing in life I regret. We shouldn't have regrets in life and for the most part...I don't. None but her. While I learned some very valuable lessons through my experiences with her I can't help but think that maybe I could have learned them in other ways.

I need to face…

The secret

I received an email yesterday from a gentleman I have been conversing with for a few weeks. He told me I needed to watch Oprah. I'm glad he told me. She had The Secret on. If you haven't heard of the Secret I highly recommend checking it out. I haven't gotten the DVD yet but it's on my list of "things to buy with my tax refund".

With just what little I had heard yesterday on Oprah I learned that I had been implementing "the secret" for awhile now. That came as a complete shock to me. It's such a simple thing. Something everyone is capable of doing. If it is so easy...why don't we do it? That is the million dollar question.

Please check out the website. It's not any "cult" thing or religious thing. It's a life thing. A thing that can totally and completely change who you are and where your life is going. What have you got to lose? Nothing. What have you to gain? Everything!!! :)

Yoga is as yoga does

Well...the girls and I started yoga last night. I bought a DVD since I don't feel the need nor do I have the finances to go to a class. "Yoga for dummies" is what I bought. Bloody hell!!! I thought I was going to die!!! I used muscles I haven't used in years. The girls did very well though. This will be our every other day thing. I need to get my body in shape for the wedding I'm in this October. I'm the maid of honor. Gotta look good. :) As for today...my body is killing me. I'll let you know how this works...LOL

Just a quickie

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I didn't get a chance to post this after the party but I shall do so now...


I'll write more later...I have a waffle and bacon that is dying to be consumed...LOL

Need some input...

Ok...I posted this on my myspace blog and now I want to find out what you guys think of it. I'm toying with starting to write. Thoughts please...:)


In my daily musings...something crossed my mind that really got me to thinking. Why do people feel the need to be bullies and gossip mongers? It is a subject I ponder on from time to time. Today...I think I found an answer. At least an answer that I can appreciate and understand. Please understand...this post is not about any one person. It is just from my lifes experiences and my thoughts.

Why do people bully? Is it from their environment and just the way they were raised or from a lifetime of being the one who was bullied? I think both. I wasn't really bullied when I was growing up. I was made fun of about my looks when I was in junior high and my maiden name was just great fodder for picking on me. For the most part though...I was well liked by everyone in grade school and high school. I didn't make fun of anyone. I may have …

Yes...no...maybe...OH I DON"T KNOW!!!!

I am having more issues with trying to post on here than I have ever had!!! It's getting really really annoying. Kind of like the weather. It can't make up it's mind!!! Wind, rain, snow, sun...we have had a plethora of seasons in just the past week!!! Tonight it is supposed to be a balmy 10. Wow!!! 10!!! That is a one and a zero...together.

I have a kind of date on Saturday. My company party is on Saturday and my dear sweet Darren is going to take me. NO!!!! Not that one. Oh please...definately not that one. I haven't lost my last braincell yet. :) I'm wearing my little black dress, black hose and black heels. Can you say I will just look all sexified? I have the cutest sparkly silver purse which will make the ensemble just pop. :) Add some pretty earrings and a simple necklace and I'm all that and a bag of chips. Ok...for those of you who know me....you know full on that I'm kidding!!! Not about the party but me being all that and a bag…

And it's headed our way...

I really hate seeing this...

A WINTER STORM WARNING REMAINS IN EFFECT FROM 4 PM THIS AFTERNOON TO 12 PM PST SATURDAY.
LIGHT TO MODERATE SNOW WILL DEVELOP LATER THIS AFTERNOON AND WILL BECOME HEAVY AT TIMES TONIGHT. TOTAL SNOW ACCUMULATION BY SATURDAY MORNING SHOULD RANGE FROM 5 TO 9 INCHES. GUSTY WINDS MAY CAUSE AREAS OF BLOWING AND DRIFTING SNOW.
A WINTER STORM WARNING IS ISSUED WHEN SIGNIFICANT AMOUNTS OF SNOW...SLEET... AND ICE ARE EXPECTED OR OCCURRING. STRONG WINDS ARE ALSO POSSIBLE. THIS WILL MAKE TRAVEL VERY HAZARDOUS...SO EXERCISE EXTREME CAUTION.


If you didn't know....I HATE WINTER!!!!!!!!!!!