Have a safe and fabulous Halloween!!!
Things are progressing here. I've made some calls and the ball is rolling. I'm so relieved that we are going to get the help our house needs. All 3 of us have some serious healing to do. I believe that once that occurs we will be a stronger and closer little family than we could ever think was possible. As Stitch says "This is my family. It's little...and broken...but still good. Yeah...still good"
Yesterday was a rough day. A lot of talking and crying. It breaks my heart to see my daughter in so much pain. What really cuts into my heart and soul is that I have caused part of her pain. I know that I have a lot of wrong things with her. Things that were done out of anger towards her father and his household. All I can do is apologize to her for those wrongs and I did do that yesterday. It was a difficult thing to admit to myself. I know I'm not a perfect mom and I will admit to my faults. To know that I am part to blame for how angry my daughter is just tears me up. My anger and frustration with her father should have never been put upon her shoulders. I feel so guilty and I need to find a way to work through that.
I'm calling to set up some counseling for her. At least she agreed to that. I was so thankful by the time the conversation was done. It was a civilized talk and no yelling. That is a first for us. Maybe we are both growing up and learning. It's going to be a difficult time in my home for awhile. I know that with a lot of work and even more understanding we can get through this.