Monday, November 24, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
I do not like them. The crawly kind of the ones that get into your immune system and totally shut you down. Oh my gosh!!! I had the stomach flu on Tuesday and I thought I was going to die. I even told Brittney, a girl I work with, to tell my boss "Tell Steven I'm going to die". It sucked!!! Stomach cramps, fever, body aches that were worse than I have ever had and I won't get started on the other things that I went through that day. Holy cow Tuesday bit it HUGE!!! I thank God that it was only a 24 hour bug and I was much better yesterday. Still have a cramp from time to time and eating is not high on my list of things to do but other than that...I'm all hunkie dorie. :)
Can you believe that Thanksgiving is next week??? Hello?!?!?! Where did the year go??? I can't say that I'm sad that 2008 is almost over. It hasn't been a fabulous year for me. Not the worst year I've had but all of the medical stuff has put me in a funk for the majority of the year. I am so thankful that I do not have breast cancer though. I went to a healing room last week and that experience was the most intense and amazing thing I have gone through in a very long time. There is no way I can even begin to explain it. I just know that something good happned that day and I believe that the next time I go in for my mammogram and ultrasound that there will no longer be any masses. I fully believe that what you speak will be brought into fruition. As long as I think the negative and speak negative...I'm setting myself up for it to become true. So...I will no longer worry that I have cancer and I will not develop cancer. I can do this. :)
Winter is on it's way my friends. Are you ready?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
Friday, November 07, 2008
Can someone explain to me where fall went? It was here. I know it was. I saw the perty leaves. I felt the crisp mornings but comfortable afternoons. Was it all in my imagination because fricking winter has shown up!!! No snow yet but it's in the air. It is unbelievably cold. I hate being cold but then again...ya'all already knew that. My office has windows the size of San Francisco so you can only imagine the cold taking refuge at my desk. I turn the heater on and I can't hear my music...which brings me to a new artist I have found. I am just amazed at this girl's voice. She sounds a lot like Sarah B on this song but the rest of the CD is fabulous. Check her out at:
Here is the first song I ever heard of hers. I'll be buying the CD. That was a duh statement wasn't it? ;)
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
One of my all time favorite singers is Michael W. Smith. I've listened to him from the age of 18 til...well....now. The results of the elections last night has really made me think about a lot of things. Where my life is and where I am heading it. No one is placing me on the road I am on. I'm doing it to myself. I'm living my life for me and I'm making such a mess of things. I'm not completely unhappy with my life. I'm doing the best I can but keeping my head just above water is not the way to live. To worry constantly about things is not the way to live. To have the fear of breast cancer foremost in my mind is not the way I want to live. I need more. I need something I can hold onto. To see the light at the end of the tunnel. To know that I am loved unconditionally and the only requirement for me to have complete happiness and know that there is so much more for me in life is to give Him my life. He wants nothing more from me but to love Him and know that He will take care of me. It's not difficult. So why did it take a frightening man to become our president elect to make me realize I need to straighten up?
I am not a religious person and I do not see myself ever being religious. Religion and an intimate and personal relationship with God are two completely different things. My relationship with Him needs to be repaired. I have done so much damage to it. What is tough to wrap my mind around is...He doesn't hold that against me. He loves me anyway and accepts me back with open arms. How can I be worthy of that? I'm not. I'm just thankful He looks past everything and forgets it.
There is a song Michael W. Smith sings that I believe every Christian needs to hold onto during this time in American history. It's called "I will be here for you". I truly believe things are going to get bad before they get better. As long as we know that God will not test us beyond what we can handle and keep our eyes upon His light and that He is watching out for us...we will not fall. It's just not taking it into our hands and fouling it up that we need to be careful of. There is a plan...we just need to have faith.
As we all know...McCain did not win the Presidential election. I was watching the elections last night and it was amazing how quickly things changed. Granted...it wasn't even a close race from the beginning but I thought I could flip through channels before someone got to 270. I flipped the channel and when I went back to MSNBC...less than 5 minutes later...it was over. I will admit that I teared up. Not from happiness but disappointment and disgust. Our new president elect is not the man I was hoping would be in office. While neither of them were the best choice as our Commander in Chief...one was a little better. That candidate did not win. Our country voted based upon race. Not for what the man stood for. I've heard how people voted for him just because he is black. They didn't even know what his stance on issues were. are you flipping kidding me??? You vote a man into the highest office in the country just because he is black? Our country is in a lot of trouble. It was in trouble before the elections but now with a known liar in office...we are heading down a road that only his supporters can take responsibility for.
Here is John McCain's concession speech. Very classy and eloquent. I'm proud to say I voted for this man.