Wednesday, March 25, 2009

For Sherri

I'm in a mood...

Sorry ya'all but I love this song. :) Now for some trivia. What movie had this playing at the end? Not the credits but just the ending scenes?

End of March

Here in Washington State the phrase "In like a lion and out like a lamb" quite accurately describes March. Here...let me show you:

The above photo is what Snoqualmie Pass looks like today. Yes...I said TODAY!!! March 25, 2009. In a week and 1/2 my friends and I will be meeting in Seattle for the GWO. GWO meaning Girls Weekend Out. You see that photo just above? That is the pass that me and two of my friends must drive over in order to get to Seattle. I am not the one doing the driving but still...I'm less than thrilled at what the roads look like at this point. Margaret texted me and said that 15 inches fell in the last 24 hours. HELLO!!! It's Spring. No Spring snow!!! Spring flowers!!! Spring sunshine!!! Spring warmth!!! This is what is required of Spring. Not the fricking white stuff falling in bucket loads!!! I know better than to expect anything other than this type of weather but please...??? A nice weekend would be...well nice. *sigh*

*muttering under my breath* Stupid snow...


I was bored. I changed my template. Thoughts?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant

I needed to remind myself of this again. It's been a rough week and one that has hurt my heart. Decisions and choices were made that weren't what I truly wanted but had to be done. I'm not going to get into the why's and what's of the circumstances. I don't need the drama. What I do need is to remember this:

Are Your Friends Here for a Reason, a Season, or a Lifetime?

Many of us are fortunate enough to have friends who are a consistent part of our lives throughout all our ups and downs. However, sometimes others we consider friends appear to enter, then depart from our lives for reasons we try to, but don't always, understand. This piece nicely explains the flow of people in and out of our lives.

It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.

Then people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Needing a friend...

No...not me. My little doof, Jeffery. He is a lonely little weenie. He's a daschund!!! Where was your mind??? Good grief. Seriously though. Now that I have moved and I have a fenced yard I think that the doof needs a friend. I've been looking at Chihuahua's. Quite cute and loveable. Not sure though. The doof can get rambunctious sometimes. I do know that I need a smaller friend though. Doof is a doxie so he has little legs and a LONG back. Plus I think a female would be better for him. That way I'm not dealing with an alpha male issue. So...we are looking for a friend for the doof. Any suggestions on a good breed?

Monday, March 16, 2009

See this?

It bloody well better not be like that in 2 weeks or I'm gonna be cranky. Thank God I'm not the one driving to Seattle for the GWO. I do not do well driving in the snow. I'm bored today...can you tell? LOL

Purse whore

I seriously want a yellow purse. Not mustard yellow. Not pastel yellow. Not dirty yellow. I want sunshine yellow!!! Bright bright bright yellow. Do you think I can find one I like? Nah. At least not in the price range I am wanting it. I found this one on eBay and it's cute. It's totally me.

Perfect size. Do I want to pay the price they are asking? I don't think so!!! *sigh* Listen to me. I just bought a purse that I was completely in love with and searched Craigslist high and low for. Seriously...I went to every major city that was on CL looking for it and found it in San Diego. What did I pay for it? Only $85.00 for the pretty thing. See?

So why am I flipping out over paying $35.00 for a yellow purse? I have no fricking clue. LOL Maybe because it's faddish and I know I won't carry it forever. My fairy purse? That will hang out with me for awhile. So...any thoughts on where I can find a nice bright sunshine yellow purse that won't break my bank? I've checked thrift stores. No luck. Send me somewhere else...:)

Weekends? Who needs em?

I do that's who!!! But...I need weekends that are good and not stressful and bring me to tears. I hate crying. My last relationship taught me that little tidbit. Crying is a sign of weakness and lets others know that they have affected you in some way. I was seriously affected yesterday and I lost it. During the situation I was in it was brought to my attention that I don't value my friends and in essence I'm not a good friend. I was called a liar which pissed me right the hell off but I got past that. It was the friend statement that really got me to thinking and questioning myself.

My friends are my lifeline. Without them I know that I would hole up somewhere and most likely lose all sense of what life is. I know I'm not a perfect friend. No one is. I make mistakes. I'm human. I try to do the best I can. I'm beginning to realize that it's not enough. I have to learn to hold my tongue and not speak what I'm matter if advice is asked of me or not. I have to learn to be a "silent" friend. Someone who just smiles and nods. I'm already the type of friend who will listen when someone needs to vent. Now I just need to keep my mouth shut. I need to learn that my problems are my own. No one wants to listen to them. No one wants to see that things bother me. I am not allowed to show emotion. That is not what is wanted from me. I've learned that the hard way. Which brings me back to crying. A sign of weakness. No one wants to see a weak person. Am I being a martyr? No. I'm just trying to take the lessons I'm handed and work them into something that is liveable for me and everyone who is in my life. At this point I am not a good friend. I suck at being one. I need to figure out how to fix that. Life is nothing more than a lesson and I need to keep learning.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

GWO condo...

Here is where the girls and I will be staying for our Girls Weekend Out. Not far from the Space Needle, Pike's Place Market, the Waterfront and everything that we are going to need. Margaret told me that there is a martini bar just across the street. Do I know how to pick a vacation condo or what? :)

Seeing the whole picture

Who am I? Seriously. Who am I? I think I'm a good mom, a good friend, a good employee and a good person. So why am I thinking about who I really am? Someone called me a cold hearted bitch a couple of years ago but this person said it was meant as a compliment. I didn't take it as such and still don't. Today I really started thinking about what that person said. She said she wanted to be a cold hearted bitch just like me. A person who doesn't wear her heart on her sleeve and get emotionally attached to every man I go out with. Wow. Is that really what I portray and who people see? Someone who is cold and has a wall that is so high and thick that no one will get past it? I know I have my walls. Most are pretty rock solid.

I've gone through my head just how many honest to goodness friends I have. The list is small. Most live out of Yakima. There are a couple that live in town but I don't see them often. That brings me to this question. Are they still friends with me because they don't see me on a daily basis and that they don't see that there is something significantly wrong with me? Is it because all they see is the mask I put on when I am around them? Does anyone really know who I am? The big question I really know who I am? I really need to do some searching and figure this out. I don't want to be alone the rest of my life and I certainly want my friends to see the real me without the masks and putting on a pretty face. I need to fix this.

Wednesday, March 04, 2009

Oy vey...

The mind can only process so much at one time. My mind has been trying to process moving into a new house, putting things in their proper place in the new house, finding out that the fridge is dead, getting my address changed everywhere, planning the GWO, dealing with a 14 year old daughter, working and my annual mammogram. Seriously??? I have reached the end of my rapidly fraying rope.

So what am I doing to not think about it? Watched the season finale of The Bachelor and seeing that drama unfold. I could put in my 2 cents but we all know what those will be. Jason is an ass for doing what he did to Melissa. Not because he broke things off with her but how he did it. I don't care if ABC told him to do it that way...he should have had the balls and stuck to whatever values and morals he has and said "No...I will not humiliate Melissa that way". Sadly...he didn't and he is now facing a serious backlash from the whole country. I would not want to be in his shoes at all. I really liked Jason and felt so bad for him last season when he went to propose to DeAnna and she stopped him mid-sentence. He didn't deserve that BUT...Melissa did not deserve what he did to her either. I know it's just a reality show and a lot of it is scripted but was just wrong. There is one good thing about the Bachelor drama...keeps my mind off of things in my real life for a little while. The weekend of April 3rd is not going to get here soon enough. Holy cow I need the GWO in the worst way.

Monday, March 02, 2009

It's Monday...

And I have moved into my new home. That is exciting isn't it? Of course it is...but not as exciting as it being the finale of The Bachelor. Yes...I have been drawn into a reality show. Shut up.