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Romantic relationships =

drama. That is all they are. I opened myself up in the last couple of weeks only to find that I'm not the brightest lightbulb in the box. I chose the wrong man to think something could develop. While he is separated he has not filed anything towards divorce. Hello smart girl!!! That is your first red flag. I chose to ignore it. While at dinner he said something that made me really think that I'm stupid if I continue this. He said that if his wife decided to work things out he would seriously consider it. What was that you are waving? Oh I know...A HUGE RED FLAG!!! Get the hell out and get out now!!!! That is a heartache for me just waiting to happen. I'm not really one for heartache. I've had way too much of it in my lifetime. I'm just not willing to take a chance that he won't take her back. The stakes are just way to high for me. I would rather be alone than always be worrying that I'm going to be the loser. Life is too short for rela…

It's just reality...

It was said this weekend that I'm the girl next door pretty. In the same breath the next question was "Do you know where nice girls finish?". Yeah. I do. They finish last. Men do not want the girl next door. They do not want a woman who has curves and may be a little squishy around the middle and hip area. The reality of it want a woman who is toned. A flat tummy and a little bubble of a butt. Her face is not starting to lose it's tightness. She most definitely does not have the beginnings of *gasp* a turkey neck.

I am the girl who is every man's friend. I am the girl every man talks to and hangs out with. I am the girl that is asked to be friends with benefits. I am not the girl any man wants to be romantically involved with. I am not the girl any man would like to marry.

My friends wonder why I'm single. I just let the whole blog world know why. I'm the girl next door pretty. I am the nice girl who always finishes last. Isn&…

Who am I?

I look in the mirror daily and wonder who the hell I am. I was thinking this morning "Okay...I'm not gay. I'm not bi but I'm sure as hell not straight". I don't like sex. I don't like relationships in the romantic sense. I just don't know where I fit or where I belong. I was part of a group of women who had girls weekends. GWO. I started GWO for all of us. I thought it was a good idea. Somewhere along the lines I wasn't part of that group. Not through anything they have done. It's me. All me. I know they felt it too. They see that I'm someone different and even though they won't say it...I'm not someone they would like to spend a weekend around. I'm not angry about it. I'm not even playing the martyr about it. My life is so different from their's. Everyone is married or has a partner. Their children are grown or they have someone who can take care of their children for a weekend. If a GWO weekend fa…


The DVD will be released on December 4. *heavens angels sigh* While doing my search I came across the Collectors Edition at Target. It will be a beautiful, beautiful start to the holidays don't you think? :)

Everyone needs to hear this

Gay, straight, black, white. I don't care who you are or what you are. Everyone needs to listen to this song and remember...stand in someone else's shoes before casting your personal judgement and agenda on others.

Fan made

A fan made trailer of Breaking Dawn. Sometimes fan made trailers kick Summit's weak trailers all to hell.

Humor and a good cause

Gotta love word of mouth. Sherri told me about a bracelet that she purchased and me being the girly girl I am...I had to check it out. Cathy makes the most beautiful bracelets. She also has a shop on Etsy. Go check her out and spend some money!!! Really...spend some. Her bracelets are worth it. :) Y'all need to click on the "like" button on her facebook! The woman has a killer sense of humor and will make you giggle everytime you read one of her posts.

This is the bracelet she created for Dee. A survivor of shaken baby syndrome. He is a wonderful little boy and the son of one of my best friends. Her bracelets are crocheted. How she crochets beads I have no bloody clue but she does and she does a fine job of it. She even makes Twilight bracelets!!! Have yet to buy one but one day I will. Well...I will when my checkbook will allow it in the budget. ;)

Birthdays and Twilight

I'm tired of doing nothing for my birthday. Granted my last birthday I was treated to a weekend of pampering and seeing Michael Buble' by a man I used to date but honestly...he drove me out of my mind and completely batty. I remembered why we aren't together. *headdesk* I want to do something with friends and the one thing that keeps me from losing my mind. Twilight. A thought popped into my melon this morning. Why not spend my birthday in the one place that would surround me with Twilight? So the plan started to form. I checked my calendar and grinned. That is a weekend without children. Say it isn't so!!! I can spend my 44th birthday in Twilight heaven and not be worried about where my kids are? Oh the joy and fabulocity of it all!!!

So where am I going to immerse myself in all Twilight? I'm going to go here:

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and for a list of everywhere else:

Where will we be staying? In

Must promote this...

I'm a Twilighter. Everyone knows that. Just look at my blog and it won't take long to figure it out. I do have to stray from my Twlight for a moment though. My friend, Linda Wolf of Cruises, Cruises, Cruises who put together the Twilight Fans Cruise I went on in August and is putting together the Twilight Cruise I'm going on next year has put together another theme cruise. Ready for it? Harry Potter! Yes my friends...there is going to be a Harry Potter themed cruise to the Caribbean. I spoke with Linda today and there are going to be LOOK ALIKES on the ship. She named off: Hagrid, Bellatrix, Sirius, Harry, Hermione and she is hopefully going to have a few more. Check out the link and if Harry Potter is your own personal brand of heroin...sign up!!! Yeah...I threw in the Twilight quote because...well because. ;)

People are just assholes...

Either that or they have some serious self esteem issues. While on my cruise I learned that there were people who thought I was a snob and said that I thought I was better than everyone else. WTF??? Are they kidding? Let's take a closer look at who I am shall we?

My past is so far from being of a snobbish kiss my ass kind of upbringing. My biological parents were alcoholics. My bio mother is on her 8th or 9th marriage. She smokes like a chiminey, textbook poor white trash and a total bitch. My adoptive parents were basically middle class. I didn't have the best of everything and we lived in a modest home. My first husband was unemployed and I supported us off of a part time waitress job at Red Lobster. mice were wealthier than we were. As long as he had his cigarettes life was good. For me...not so much hence the divorce. I currently live in a 1973 doublewide manufactured home. I drive a 2002 PT Cruiser. I shop for all of my clothes at thrift store…

Mike Welch, Chaske Spencer and Jodelle Ferland Twi Cruise 2010

He karaoke's quite hilariously. He actually split his pants while singing Bohemian Rhapsody.

Here is the Q&A session...

Mike and his booty dance from Twilight.

Home for a month

And I really wish I was back on the ship. Life is so much easier when you are on a cruise ship. No cares. No worries. Just having fun and relaxing. I can't even begin to say how much I enjoyed the trip. It was truly something that had to be experienced. Here is my trip in a quick pictorial:

Our first meeting. It was like seeing family again. :)

Welcome to Forks!!!

Forks Police car

What is left of Forks High School. I got lucky and there was a contractor giving a couple of girls a brick from the school. Yes...I got a brick also. :)

Bella's house. While we were here taking pics the owners were inside taking pics of us. LOL

Bella's place of employment.

Mini meadow!!!! Okay...we were laying in a bunch of clover but it was our own meadow. :)

The Cullen house. This place is GORGEOUS!!!

First Beach at La Push. I have fallen in love with this beach and to be kicks Cannon Beach's ass all over the place.

Me and Rhonda at First Beach. I love this woman!!! She is one of the most…