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Life is like a box of chocolates....

You never know what you're gonna get. Truer words have never been spoken. Let's face it...life is a crap shoot. Sometimes you win...sometimes you lose. It's how you handle the losses. Some losses I have failed miserably in the aftermath. Talk about your lesson learning experiences.

Natalie mentioned something last night on her facebook about how she tries, and tries and tries with a certain friend but nothing changes. Well...it was along those lines. I'm paraphrasing. That status made me think of the past year and how with certain friends I did the same thing. No matter what I said or did those women judged me or criticizied me. Those were the women I cut out of my life after I had finally had enough. A person can only take so much and then it's time to end the relationship. So I miss those women? Sometimes. Do I regret the friendships? No. It is through the ups and downs with them that I found who I am and just what I will and will not accept. I do think "Wou…

The highs...the lows

In the last 7 years I have learned how to do something. Stand up for myself. I won't allow myself to be a doormat for others anymore. I also will not sit back and let others talk trash about me or behind my back. Once I find out that is going on...I'm outta there. Friendship over. Kaput. Dead. Bury it because it's no longer breathing. It is because of this I have been called many a name and told I do not know how to be a friend. Oh really now... If being a friend means I am to accept name calling, accept someone saying "fuck you" to me, not saying how something hurts me, keeping my emotions and feelings buried so no one can see them, and rolling over so I can be walked on then I guess I am not a friend. I refuse to let someone speak to me as if I am subhuman and not say something back. No longer in my nature. I will not accept two faced backstabbing people into my life. I don't need it. It may sound like a cliche but life is too short for peopl…

Dating is a crap shoot

It's flattering when you meet a man 200 miles from home and then he places an ad in the paper looking for you. What is not so flattering is finding out what this man's history is. When I meet someone I Google him. I'll look on court websites to see if he has a record. I'm not stupid. Imagine my surprise when I found out some things about this man that were far from what I ever thought I would find. I ended it within 24 hours of finding out this information. He is was less than nice to me. It's okay. I have to not only look out for my well being but I also need to look out for my childrens welfare. I won't put any of us at risk for a man. It's just not worth it.

So...I am back in the pond. Swimming around with the hope that there is a fishie out there for me. I do have prospects. A man whom I've known for at least 6 years and back in contact with. A man I know doesn't have a record and is clean. We will see where it goes. If it goes…