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Today is my last day of work for the next 10 days. I'm not sure how I feel about that. I've never been on a trip of this magnitude alone. I'm excited to meet everyone that I have been texting, chatting, emailing and talking to for the past year. This is just completely out of my comfort zone. I'm just a bundle of emotions right now. Terrified, excited, nervous. I am border tears because I am so ready to meet my Twi-family. I've met a couple of people already so that helps. It's all so surreal. I'm sure I'm going to have an absolutely amazing time. I just need to get over the initial jitters. Will post tons of pics when I'm home. :)

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