Life as I know it...

This past weekend I went to my 25 year high school reunion. In absolutely no way do I feel or look like I graduated 25 years ago. At least that is what I keep telling myself. I figure as long as I keep saying it I won't believe it. :) I can honestly say that I was not looking forward to this soiree'. I've been in a bit of a "ho hum...leave me alone" kind of mood lately. A reunion where everyone or most everyone is with a significant other. Married or just dating there were going to be couples. Lots of them. Did I really want to put myself into a situation where I would feel like a total loser for still being single? Ah what the hell...why not? Gave me an excuse to go shopping. Found a cute top and I was off to the Friday night get together at Jackson's. Walking into a bar is always a strange feeling. Kinda like you are being stared at and are you grade A top prime. Yeah...it felt that way for a bit until I saw some friends. Beelined it to their table and felt...

Three and 1/2 weeks. That's all the time left until the cruise. When did that happen? Where did the last year go? I'm not ready yet!!! I still have a few things to pick up. I have my dresses that are still getting altered. *sigh* Well...ready or not...it's time. Time to experience something I have been looking forward to for the past year. To be honest...I'm terrifed. I've never done anything like this in my life. Taking a trip without my kids or family. Sure I have my Twi-family but I've only met 3 of them face to face. I'm sitting here typing this trying so hard to not break down in tears. I really shouldn't be this scared. Throughout the year I have created some wonderful friendships with people. They aren't strangers to me. They are my friends. My new family. I'm sure that once I get checked into my hotel on the 5th and meet everyone I will be fine but right now...I'm beyond frightened and nervous. :/

Anyone who knows me knows that the Twilight Saga is my life. I don't freak out and go all ballistic with buying merchandise even though I do have quite a bit of Twilight stuff. I cannot explain why Twilight means so much to mean. It's become a part of who I am. Truly I did not plan this. It's like falling in love. It chooses you. I fell in love March 2009 and it is still going strong. Honestly I don't want it to end. I know it will and that just hurts my heart. Weird to say but Twilight has kept me going when there are times I felt I didn't want to. Twilight has brought some amazing people into my life. People that I know will remain in my life until my heart stops beating. Yes...I took that from Jacob. Cut me some slack here. ;) Eclipse was released June 30th and there is a song in the soundtrack that has touched me in a way no other song in the saga has. It's called All Yours by Metric. I can see it viewed in two different ways. One as a love...