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It's my life

Anyone who knows me knows that the Twilight Saga is my life. I don't freak out and go all ballistic with buying merchandise even though I do have quite a bit of Twilight stuff. I cannot explain why Twilight means so much to mean. It's become a part of who I am. Truly I did not plan this. It's like falling in love. It chooses you. I fell in love March 2009 and it is still going strong. Honestly I don't want it to end. I know it will and that just hurts my heart. Weird to say but Twilight has kept me going when there are times I felt I didn't want to. Twilight has brought some amazing people into my life. People that I know will remain in my life until my heart stops beating. Yes...I took that from Jacob. Cut me some slack here. ;)

Eclipse was released June 30th and there is a song in the soundtrack that has touched me in a way no other song in the saga has. It's called All Yours by Metric. I can see it viewed in two different ways. One as a love for another person but I view it as a person loving themselves after being hurt by life and finding the courage to come back stronger than ever. The lyrics are a bit difficult to understand so I'm posting the lyrics along with the video. This is by far my favorite song, next to Super Massive Blackhole, to come out of the saga.



Other lives, always tempted to trade
Will they hate me for all the choices I’ve made
Will they stop when they see me again?
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
and you're all mine, say what they may
and all your love I’ll take to my grave
and all my life starts now

Tear me down they can't take you out of my thoughts
Under every scar there’s a battle I’ve lost
Will they stop when they see us again?
I can’t stop now I know who I am
Now I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
and you're all mine, say what they may
and all your love I’ll take to my grave
and all my life starts

I’m all yours, I’m not afraid
and you're all mine, say what they may
and all your love I’ll take to my grave
and all my life starts starts now

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