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Everywhere I turn...

I'm seeing signs of fall. Even some of the leaves have begun to change. Summer is still trying to hold on and you can see it gasping it's last breath as the cooler weather begins to take over. I love fall more than any other season. Spring does come in a close second.

Such different opposing seasons. Spring is a new beginning. Wildlife babies being born. Flowers peeking through the thawing ground to soak in the new sun. Windows being opened in homes to let in the fresh air. A time of waking from winter's slumber.

Fall is the last breath of life. Trees take on a new coat of color with the changing of the leaves. Flowers begin to wither and pass on. In all of that there is the awakening of the senses as scents such as nutmeg, clove and cinnamon take over kitchens as chef's, professional and family, being to produce such wonders as apple tarts, pumpkin pie, and cinnamon rolls. Here in Yakima the Central Washington State Fair begins the end of September. When those smells start wafting around you know...fall has begun.

I'm entering a time of the year where my mood lifts and happiness is a part of everyday life. I see nothing but light throughout this season and into the holidays. I know I have some pressing issues facing me and if it weren't for autumn I would most likely be giving into the pressure and seriousness of it. I will be seeing Phantom of the Opera next Friday with my children and best friend. A fabulous beginning to what I consider the most wonderful season of the year.

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