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And the wait begins...

Twilight kicked butt last night on the MTV Movie Awards. They took all awards they were nominated for aside from one...best song. The whole show was good but definitely not kid friendly. Here is the trailer for New Moon just in case you missed the awards show. I know that you are just chomping at the bit to see it. LOL When the girls and I saw it last night all 3 of us screamed when we saw how Jacob phased. Seriously...it is going to be a looooonnnnggggg 6 months. *sigh*


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