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It's going to be busy...

Good grief this summer is going to be busy. Well...if the next few weekends are any indication it will be. This weekend....a concert and family portraits for my ex husband and our daughter. I won't be in the pic. LOL The following weekend...family portraits for me and my girls. ALSO...a friend and I are doing something really cool with our "wedding" gowns. What a joke that is huh? I was engaged to a sociopath and she was married to...well a creep and I'll leave it at that. Anyway...we are going to do a thing called "Trash this dress". Here is a link to show you just what we are doing. It's not only going to give us some really cool photographs but it will be quite healing and cleansing. I'm excited about doing it. Especially after figuring out just how lucky I am to have NOT gotten married to Darren. Marrying him would have caused irreversible damage to my girls and most likely ended up with me having long term accomodations in the state penitentiary. LOL

The week of June 17th the girls and I are heading to California to see my family. It's been well over a year since I've seen my parents. I'm needing some mom/dad time. I hate being so far from any kind of family. It really really sucks. I mean I'm talking sour pickles here. That is how bad it sucks. LOL

It has become glaringly obvious how boring life has become. No Darren, Ronna and Kim bullshit. How nice is that? I think quite nice actually. I do believe I will keep it this way. :)

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