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Life is meant to be lived

There is going to be drama in life.  We can't avoid it.  No matter what we do, no matter what we say, no matter how kind we try to be, no matter how good we try to be...someone will inevitably try to hurt you.  They will lie about you. They will call you crazy.  They will try to destroy you.  You will never understand why.  This is where "life is meant to be lived".  Live your life.  Don't own another person's life and how they wish to be.  That's upon them.  We live in an age where "delete and block" are now your safety blanket.  Use them.  Protect yourself.  The hardest thing you can do is walk away without being drawn into the hate and defending yourself.    Even though you want to stand up, don't do it.  It's what feeds the hate.

Why do you want to defend yourself?  You know who you are.  Your friends know who you are.  Why does it matter what others say and believe?  As long as they are not harming you physically or interfering into your everyday life...move on.  Let them do what they believe they have to do.  If they feel better saying you are a horrible person, when your friends know that you aren't, let them feel better.  At least you are helping them in some small way to have a  more positive view about themselves. 

A person's hate towards you is not a reflection of you.  It is their perceived view of why they think you are, who they want you to be.  Don't own that.  Why would you own that?  Hate does not destroy the person being hated.  It will consume and destroy the person hating.  Live your life and to those who hate you?  Pray for them because honestly.....hate is a vicious and all consuming emotion.  It will eat away at a person bit by bit until there is nothing left but anger and bitterness.   You are a good person.  If in no one's eyes but yours and God's.  Those are the sets of  eyes that truly matter at the end of the day. 

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