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I am just horrible!!! I've been neglecting my blog...:( Been so busy with other things that I haven't been around like I should be. Where to begin...oh!!! The former friend of mine who lives in the same trailer park...SHE IS MOVING!!!!!!! Can you color me happy as....well just color me mind bogglingly happy. :) I found out through J. Apparently she had to sit next to said former friends daughter on the bus. The daughter told J that they are moving and J got in the car smiling and told me. This completely made my day, week, month...ah well...it made my year!!! :)
It was a great weekend other than my car but we won't get into that. LOL I went to Wenatchee and spent Saturday with a friend and her son. Went to the Chelan County fair, colored my hair so I would no longer look like the freaking zebra another so called "friend" bleached. Don't ask. It was HORRIBLE!!!! Suggestion...if a "friend" wants to foil your hair....DON'T DO IT!!! Oh...and don't let them near your childs head with scissors. Makes for a really really bad situation and one that was the cherry on top of the narcissitic sundae the so called "friend" wallows in everyday. Yes...the friendship ended. Not that it was much of a friendship in my opinion. Thank goodness I only gave her 3 months of my life. Not enough to shed tears over...which I didn't. :)
Things are actually going pretty well in spite of my car. Making plans for the house come tax return time. New flooring, painting the living room and some minor landscaping. My nephew was born last week weighing in at 8lbs 4 oz and 21 inches long. His name is Benjamin Jacob. So....I'M AN AUNT!!!! For the first time might I add. Now to get to California and see him before he graduates from high school.
Speaking of graduating...K has chosen where she wants to go to college. Would you believe....HARVARD!!! Oh good grief. So I have sent off for info on the school and I've checked out their website. There are some really good financial assistance programs for Harvard so you never know. If she gets really good grades and can get some scholarships...my baby just may be going to Harvard once she graduates. Granted...that is in 2012 but in the grand scheme of things that isn't too far away. *sigh* I'm getting old...:( But....my hair looks good. LOL

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