Seriously...those eyes just kill me!!! Oh good grief...now I need to watch Twilight tonight. Can you say obsessed? I know I can. I am happy to know that I have support in my obsession with some friends. They are just as mad about the saga as I am.
I made plans for July 4th to go to Portland and watch Vamp Baseball with another Twi-friend. While down there I figured why not go visit the places where the movie was filmed. Great photo ops and it will make Kyla as jealous as all get out. She has to be with the SD all summer so there won't be an opportunity for her to join me. She is getting a Twilight birthday though. I'm taking her to Forks and we are staying in a Twilight themed room. Forks in late October. The weather will be lovely. Read that with sarcasm as any Pacific Northwesterner will tell you...the Olympic Peninsula will be drenched by that time. Must remember to bring an umbrella and my webbed feet. It will be worth it to see the look on Kyla's face and making a lifetime memory.
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...