I admit it. I have turned into a makeup whore. I thank my Twi-friends for it. Sephora is like a swirling vortex of fabulous products that you just cannot pull yourself out of. I try to avoid the website at all costs but yesterday I had to order. Really. I did. Since there isn't a store here in the armpit of Washington I needed to get my birthday gift from them. A smokey eyes kit. I ordered something. What did I order??? Oh yeah!!! I ordered a small makeup tray. Seems that the one I have now is starting to get a little crowded. Okay...it's getting a lot crowded. BUT...with my order I not only got my smokey eyes kit I also got 3 perfume samples AND a super sample of Shiseido Bio-Performance Super Corrective Serum. All of that for $13. See? I love Sephora.
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...