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Holy crow I'm exhausted!!! Everything about yesterday was worth it other than the drive home. The weather sucked!!! Seriously. I stopped in North Bend for gas and something to keep me awake and it was raining to beat the band. By the time I got to Ellensburg my knuckles were white and I could barely move my fingers because they were gripping the steering wheel so tightly. Rain mixed with snow and fierce winds made for an ugly drive.

I went to Seattle yesterday to meet Linda and Bobbi. They are organizing the Twilight Cruise I'm going on in August. Have I mentioned I'm going on a Twilight themed cruise? ;) I am. You should check it out:

http://www.twilightfanscruise.com/

Met up with Linda and Bobbi in the lobby of the Westin and from there it was a great time. Granted they were having a meeting to get some things worked out for the pre-cruise portion of the trip but it was interesting to see the inner workings. After all of that was said and done we sat down for drinks and appetizers. I have found MY drink while we are at the Westin. I love Cosmo's but I can say that hands down The Westin in Seattle makes the best ones by far. I'm sure that by the end of the 3 days the bartenders will know to make it as soon as they see me. YUMMO!!!

Sonya (sales manager at the Westin), Linda, Bobbi and me



We went to see a Mariners game last night and I was honestly thinking we would be sitting in an okay section. Nope. We were sitting in the Terrace Club seats. NICE!!! Found out a little more about the Vampire Night festivities and got a free Mariners baseball cap. :) A really nice one too. Not that I'm much of a cap person but I'll wear it for Vampire Night.





Me and Linda

I'm so glad I signed up for the Twilight Cruise. I've met some of my best friends through this trip and we haven't even gone on the cruise yet. Lifetime friendships have been formed and when I told Linda that it looked like she teared up a bit. I don't think she expected this little turn of events but her idea of a Twilight fans cruise was quite possibly one of the best things she could have ever done. :)

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