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People are just assholes...

Either that or they have some serious self esteem issues. While on my cruise I learned that there were people who thought I was a snob and said that I thought I was better than everyone else. WTF??? Are they kidding? Let's take a closer look at who I am shall we?

My past is so far from being of a snobbish kiss my ass kind of upbringing. My biological parents were alcoholics. My bio mother is on her 8th or 9th marriage. She smokes like a chiminey, textbook poor white trash and a total bitch. My adoptive parents were basically middle class. I didn't have the best of everything and we lived in a modest home. My first husband was unemployed and I supported us off of a part time waitress job at Red Lobster. Yes...church mice were wealthier than we were. As long as he had his cigarettes life was good. For me...not so much hence the divorce. I currently live in a 1973 doublewide manufactured home. I drive a 2002 PT Cruiser. I shop for all of my clothes at thrift stores. I live from paycheck to paycheck. I will even admit to receiving food assistance from the state. So my question is...what in the hell is the basis for people thinking I'm a snob? By my looks or the fact that I'm not all up in someone's space when I first meet them? This isn't just from those people on the cruise. I get nasty looks from people I don't even know. There are days it's from everyone I cross paths with. Walk into the office building? Ugly looks from women coming out of the gym. Walk into the convenience store for a soda? Ugly looks from the woman behind the counter taking my money. Walk into Wal-mart for groceries? Ugly looks for just about every woman I walk by.

So what is it? I'm a kind person. I'm genuine and do not think of myself as better than anyone. I do what I can for my friends and I treat my friends with respect. I'm a good person. The people on the cruise, whom I thought were friends, talking trash about me when I truly did not do anything or say anything to deserve it really did hurt me. When I found that out I pretty much retreated into myself the rest of the trip. I still had fun but kept the real me from showing. I didn't go out of my way to be friendly to everyone. I stayed in my little circle. Will I do that in Italy? No but that is a different perspective for a different blog. My reason for this blog isn't looking for "fluff up my ego" comments. It's just me not understanding why I'm looked at in such a negative light. If I was a gossip and rude to people I could understand it. I'm neither of those traits so why the hate filled garbage being thrown in my direction?



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