Finding out my parents knew I overdosed at the age of 17 and they did nothing to save me or get help for me has told me precisely just what my life is worth. Nothing. It's worth nothing.
Having a daughter who gaslights me whenever I blow up after being used as a doormat for months has told me precisely what my life is worth. Nothing. It's worth nothing.
When my daughter has medical issues and she only called because she had to told me precisely what my life is worth. Nothing. It's worth nothing.
What is saving my life right now? A life insurance policy with a suicide clause. Why? Because my life is worth $50,000. Why wait? Because I won't stick my family with my debt. They may think very little of me and have no use for me but at the least they won't be burdened with a monetary issue at my death.
December 1, 2021. The day my life can change and the countdown has begun. That gives me a sense of peace.
Well I got a couple more hours of sleep. I have the best kids. They let me sleep and didn't wake me up until my cell started ringing. We went out and about today. K wanted to try Bubble Tea so I obliged her. Mistake. It is not good by any stretch of the imagination. If you don't know what Bubble Tea is....g00gle it. Once you find out...don't try it. *shudder* An expensive taste test. There is a storm heading our way. Would you believe it's supposed to snow tonight??? Snow on Easter. How odd would that be? Speaking of Easter...my girls are watching TBN (Trinity Broadcasting Network) and watching a childs version of The Passion. Even watching the crucifixtion of Christ as a cartoon it still brings tears to my eyes. I am so unworthy of what He went through for me. Well not just me but all of mankind. I saw The Passion last year and that is when I realized I needed to turn my life around. I was making a serious mess of things so I gave it all back to God. My life has had it...