Well things just get better and better. I called my mom last night and the conversation was pretty much about Paul. I know...shocking huh? Yeah right. LOL I gave her the basics about him and she was impressed. We got onto the subject of past boyfriends....Darren in general. My parents had no use for Darren whatsoever. Mom told me that when Darren started alienating me from my family she knew that I was being abused. Not in the physical sense but emotional and mental. She said that he had such control over me and when that happened she wanted nothing to do with him and she began a prayer chain for the relationship to end. Well...the prayer chain worked. We broke up within a month of the chain starting. Ah...the power of prayer. During our conversation the subject of Christmas came up. She said that I should talk to Paul and all of us come down there for Christmas. WOW!!! Did that shock the heck out of me. Not something I expected from my mom. Especially after everything I have gone through. Mom knows how tightly I shut down after Darren. There must have been something in my voice or there was something I said that hinted to her that Paul is a good man. Well...he is. :) I told Paul what my mom said and his response was "GREAT!!! Let's pack up the girls and head on down there!". Again...WOW!!! I know it sounds like we are rushing things. We aren't. We are taking things slow and getting to know one another. We are just making some plans and if my parents approve then it's all going to be great and there is nothing left to do but continue writing the amazing story of Tracey and Paul. :)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...