It's official. I have "Schmuck Magnet" on my forehead. Paul was one also!!! Good grief. I'm sorry but you do not tell someone you have only seen 3 times that you are in love with them!!! There were other issues but suffice it to say...I ended it. Too many fricking red flags with him. Why do I date? Why do I put myself through this crap? Isn't there a decent man out there? A man who isn't addicted to online porn, who isn't abusive, who isn't controlling??? A normal man. That is all I ask. My dating history is littered with freaks, geeks and....well freaks. Good grief....I hate dating.
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...