I have a date tomorrow. *gasp* Shocking huh? Believe me...surprised myself with this one. We just started talking this past weekend. I figured that I don't want to waste his time and mine with lots of emails and phone calls. Just meet and if we hit it off...great. If not...no harm done. This dating stuff sucks. Hopefully this will be the last man I have a "first" date with for a long time. So far all is going well. He is good looking, 6'3", teddy bear type (doesn't mean he is fat but just a big guy...he is 6 foot 3 inches ya know!!!), 2 kids (boy and girl), country boy, same interests as me and he thinks I'm hot! LOL That last part is the perfect reason to date him huh? ;) We shall see how it goes. No jumping into anything. One day at a time.
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...