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Yada yada yada...life has been so completely boring that there isn't a whole lot to blog about anymore. I have no drama...well none that warrants talking about. It's just been life without any excitement. I guess that's why I haven't blogged. LOL I'm bored with it so why bore everyone else with it?

It's cold. Not just cold but fricking cold!!! I don't do winter very well. I like the clothes we can wear in the winter but I just don't take too kindly to freezing my already flat hiney off. It's been somewhere around...oh.....3 degrees. WOW!!! Isn't that just toasty? Today they are saying it's supposed to get up to 38. I'm not holding my breath. I just don't see that happening. At all.

Poor Kyla is home today with a cold. I hate it when my babies are sick. Sunday I faced the food poisoning monster. I had a Krispy Kreme and apparently it was not a good one. Never have I had that much pain and I've had children!!! I have no desire to have a KK for awhile. LOL But...something very nice happened while I was feeling icky. I met a new man and he was a sweetie and brought me some 7-up to settle my tummy. Drove out of his way just to do that. How cool is that? There are gentleman out there!!! Wheeee!!!! After a lifetime of schmucks...I found a good one. Not saying it's a permanent thing though. If it works out...great. If not...I still found someone good and that will give me hope. Hope is a good thing. :)

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