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Gosh it's nice...

To be blogging again!!! I've been such a recluse as of late and just didn't have much to say. Had way too much soul searching to do and figuring crap out. I was still holding on to the delusion that I could remain friends with Darren (who will from here on out be known as what's his face because the mere mention of his name makes me want to throw up). After finding out how two faced he truly is and then putting two and two together about what type of man he is which all I will say is sociopath...the rest I won't post because I don't need the grief it would cause. Those who matter know what I figured out and all are thankful for me and my girls to be away from him.

Anyway...enough of that bs. It's no longer part of my life. My life now is my kids, house, job, friends and Curt. I'll be seeing Curt again on Saturday after a day of me, my girls, JoeyLynne (a friend of mine) and her boys having our pictures taken. Joey and I are doing the "Trash that dress" on Saturday also. It's going to be sooooo fun!!! The kids will get to play in the river at Walla Walla Point Park afterwards so it's going to be a great day all around. The kids get to play and I get to see Curt for dinner.

OH!!! Curt invited me to go see the Tim Mcgraw/Faith Hill concert next Thursday!!! Whee!!! I will go over there after work and head home Friday morning. He has already told me that he will cook me a nice breakfast before I head home. Well...not home but to work. My boss is so sweet!!! He said I can come in around 11'ish and then work a little late to make up the time I'll be missing. This job has been a complete blessing to me and the girls. Speaking of my job...I passed my insurance licensing test!!! I am now the office manager and I got a nice healthy raise among other things. Life is just way good and I'm a truly happy little girl. :)

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