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Ready for this? I had a date on Saturday. *gasp* Yes...I know!!! As we all know...dating scares the hell out of me. Do you know how deperately I wanted to cancel the date? I didn't and I'm so very glad I went. It was THE most amazing date I have EVER been on. Let me recap it for you...

He picked me up at 1:30 Saturday afternoon and the minute I saw him I knew I had made the right decision. Not only because he is good looking but the kindness that I saw in his eyes put me completely at ease. He brought gifts he bought in Disneyland for me and my girls, some roses, a daisy plant for my flower garden and some homemade lotions/soaps/lip balms. Talk about a surprise. No guy has ever done that.

The rest of the day was as close to perfection as a day can be. We drove north to Leavenworth and then had lunch at a little drive in called "The Heidleburger". Lunch was great and so was the company. :) From there we headed to Lake Wenatchee. It was an amazingly gorgeous day and very little wind. For Lake Wenatchee...that is a rarity and a very good thing. :) We spent around an hour there just talking and relaxing. After some kid walked up to Curt asking him if he had a belly button we decided to leave and head to the venue. LOL

We went to The Gorge Amphitheater for the John Mayer concert. What a great show. I had never really listened to John Mayer until the concert. I am now going to go out and buy his CD's. LOL Since there were about a bazillion people at the concert we just sat in his car talking and eating until the crowds thinned out so we could make our way back to my place. We finally got to my house around 1:30am. Seeing how he lives 2 1/2 hours away I told him he could stay at my place. No...we did not have s*x. LOL He was a complete gentleman. I have plans to go see Tim McGraw and Faith Hill next week so thankfully we don't have to wait a month before we can see each other again.

He did say something to me during our marathon conversation and that was "Tracey...I will treat you with nothing less than the utmost dignity and respect" OMGOSH!!! Where has this man been hiding??? In the past 5 years no man has ever treated me the way he did in one 12 hour period. I can't even begin to share all that he said but suffice it to say...any man I've dated in the last 5 years cannot even begin to compare to Curt. In no way could they even come close.

Can you believe it? I found a good man!!! I'm still sticking to the 6 month clause but aside from that...I'm really liking this man. I'll keep him around for awhile.

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