Meme seen at Nell's

Answer
In.
One.
Word.
Only.
(It’s Harder than you think)

Where is your cellphone? here
Describe your significant other? huh?
Your hair? looong
Your mother? uptight
Your father? unhappy
What is your favorite gadget? cell
What did you dream last night? didn’t
What do you prefer to drink? pepsi
Dream car? chevelle
What room are you currently in? Office
Your ex (if you have one)? p*ick
Your biggest fear? poverty
What do you want to be in 10 years? comfortable
Who did you spend last night with? kids
What are you not? happy
The last thing you did? this
What are you wearing? sweater
Favorite book? Phantom
The last thing you ate? cereal
Your life? eh
Your mood? tired
Your best friends? loyal
What are you thinking about right now? sleepy
Your car? messy
What are you doing right now? typing
Your summer? hot
Marital status? alone
What is on your TV right now? Off
When did you last laugh? today
When did you last cry? yesterday
School? done

Too much...

There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...

2004 - 2023

Twenty years ago, I was a mess. I was belittled and demeaned to the point where I hated myself and would have done anything to hurt those who hurt me. From family to friends to men. I lashed out, created more drama than was necessary and didn't care who I hurt. As long as they were hurt before they hurt me, I justified my words and actions. If someone DID hurt me? God help them. I held nothing back. I'm not proud of who I was. I am ashamed of who I was. I did things I should have never done, and I cannot take any of it back no matter how desperately I wish I could. Today, in 2023, I am someone completely different than who that woman was in 2004. I'm not the unmedicated mentally ill person anymore. I'm getting healthy not only mentally but physically. I'm more successful than I was told I would ever be. I'm not the loser bitch that I was told I was. I'm a good person with an "I have gone through hell" history. I am a woman who struggles with ea...

People who say they love you...

Shouldn't be the very people who hurt you the most. For me, the worst damage comes from those who said they loved me and they were the people who destroyed me. And people wonder why I don't believe in love.

Life as I know it...

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