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Brrrr....cold....seriously!!!

It is December 22. Only the beginning of winter. I'm done with winter now. For the past 2 or 3 weeks we have been dealing with absolutely ridiculous temps. I believe it was last week we were -14 with the wind chill. Did you read that right??? NEGATIVE 14!!! That my friends is just not right. There is just no earthly reason why the temps need to get that low. I cannot for the life of me figure out the good things behind it. What was God thinking when He said "Let there be sub zero temperatures"? When I get to heaven I'm going to have a chat with Him about it.

Aside from the weather...all is well within my little home. It's just me and the critters until Thursday though. Kids are gone for a week. Kinda nice. Kinda lonely. I've been falling asleep in my recliner because I don't want to go to bed. How stupid is that? It's not like I've always had someone in my bed. For some odd reason though...since the kids have left...I don't like going to bed alone. Ok Stacey...analyze that one for me. ;)

I believe I have mentioned that the girls and I have to move. If I didn't....we have have to move. My parents are going to be filing bankruptcy (yes...that sucks) and they are filing on the house I'm living in. I'm not worried or concerned about the house. It's an old POS anyway. Not worth what they owe on it. I was worried about a place to live but found a duplex that I can move into. Not in the area I want to be in but still...it's a place to live. While chatting with a client today he said that he has some friends who have rentals in the area I DO want to be in. No commuting the kids to school!!! That would be a blessing!!! I'm not being forced out of where we are so I have a little bit of time. Besides...have I mentioned it's colder than a witches boobie in a brass bra on the shady side of an igloo? Not a chance I would be moving now anyway. We will see what Kelly comes up with. Kelly being the client. It's so nice knowing our clients are kind and caring people. :)

Well..if I don't post before Thursday...

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