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It has been an interesting day. Our 44th President was sworn in today. For some people...it was a great thing. For others...not so much. I read that a certain talk show celebrity stated "He is amazing grace personified." I heard on the radio that people were clamoring to touch him. I'm really unsure of all the God like admiration and worshipping that people are laying upon this man we now call our President. He is a man. He does not walk on water. He is not the second born Son of my God. He is human just as the person who is reading my blog. I can't quite wrap my mind around all of this. What I can wrap my mind around is how I feel about this man. I do not believe he is right for the job. I do not believe that the other candidate was right. This country was handed a bad hand and we had to choose one. One was a poor little rich kid. The other was colored and from the wrong side of the tracks. Hmmm...we are all having financial issues...who should speak for the underprivledged? Easy one to answer but I will say I did not vote for Mr. Change even though I'm as poor as a church mouse. His stand on issues and my gut told me which little box to check off.

I'm concerned about how this country has drawn a line in the sand so to speak. So many people have talked trash about Mr. B. He did not make good decisions. No president is exempt from that. Do I agree with this war? Not at all. I do support our troops though. What really bothers me is how defensive and bent out of shape Mr. Change's supporters are if someone talks trash about him yet these are the very same people who have had nothing good to say for the past 8 years about the exiting administration. Mistakes were made in the last 8 years. Mistakes will surely be made in the next 4. When the towers fell I can't help but think and believe that the people who are bashing Mr. B were full on behind him when he wanted to put an end to terrorism and punish those who killed innocent American citizens on our own soil. But...both men are exactly that. Men. They make choices and decisions based upon what they feel is right. Mr. B did. Mr. Change will. Mr. Change will make decisions that will flat out piss people off. The very people who voted him into office.

This country is on a honeymoon right now. All is wonderful. All is fabulous. There is a black President. Correction...a 1/2 black 1/2 WHITE President. He is promising change. He is promising pretty much the world and to bring about peace. I hope and pray for his sake and mostly for my country's sake...he can make good on those promises.

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