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Year end blog

I cannot say that 2009 was a bad year. Actually...it was a really good one.

January - Hated the start of the year. Met someone but found out that he is a womanizer and man-whore. He didn't want anything to do with me when I said I wouldn't have sex with him. I stopped watching the news after that. Yes...he is a well known tv personality here in town.

February - Got serious about finding a new place to live. The house I was in was starting to make me and the kids sick. End of the month I walked into a house that I knew in an instant was going to be my new home.

March - Moved into MY new home. :) Saw "Twilight" for the first time. The addiction began.

April - First GWO was the beginning of the month. Learned that the words "Christian" and "hypocrite" go hand in hand. Someone who couldn't accept me being honest and truthful chose to end our friendship. With that action the weight he left on my heart was lifted.

May - Not a lot happened in May. Jordin turned 10 and that freaked me out a bit. When did my baby grow up?

June - School is out. Oh boy. A full 3 months of hearing "MOM!!! I'm bored!!!" Found out about the "Twilight Cruise" to Alaska. Put my deposit down. :)

July - Went to Vancouver and spent 4th of July weekend with Tina. We took the "Twilight" tour and had a blast!!! I did learn to not have any kind of food at The Viewpoint Inn. Their hamburgers were still moo'ing when they were served to us. Needless to say...I had some tummy issues later in the day.

August - Mom and dad came to visit. I miss them so much. :(

September - My baby girl started high school. When the hell did that happen???

October - My baby girl turned 15. WHAT??? I'm not diggin this at all.

November - After 6 months of planning I had a New Moon party. Went to see New Moon the first of many times. Realized that I will not plan the Eclipse party. Someone else can do it. This planning stuff is exhausting.

December - Had the best Christmas since 2000. Lots of Twilight stuff. :)

All in all...a great year. Next year is shaping up to be even better. A trip to NY, 2nd annual GWO, Eclipse party, 25 year high school reunion, cruise, my parents coming to visit, Kyla getting her drivers license. See? Busy. I like it.

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