I decided back in October that I needed to start working out. Since buying my house and having the lump in my breast removed I've gained some weight. I've gone from a size 8 to a 10. Ouch. Goes to show that stress is the best diet out there. Remove the stress and guess what? You gain weight!!! Well...at least I did and I'm hating it with a fricking passion!!! The cruise has given me incentive to lose what I've gained. Let me tell you...it was easier putting it on than taking it off. I joined Curves and didn't really get serious about it until the last couple of weeks. Today was my day to be measured. I've lost an inch in my waist and 2% body fat. WOW!!! I didn't think I was losing anything. If this keeps up I'll make my goal by cruise time. I have a pair of jeans I could wear when I turned 40 and they were a size 6. I liked how I looked in them and I want to be able to wear them again. I know I can do it and having the club in the same building where I work helps. I can't make excuses to not go plus the owner won't let me slide. She stays on me and reminds me why I'm doing this. I have noticed something though. I feel really good after working out. At least now that I'm really into it. The first week or two I wanted to die. I kept thinking "What the hell did I get myself into???" Now I'm holding myself accountable and even when I don't want to go work out...I do it anyway. My eating habits still haven't changed though. I really need to work on that one. Trying to stop drinking so much soda and that is a serious challenge. I've gotten myself to where I don't buy it in the mornings anymore. I drink water as soon as I get to work and I think that is helping. All I know is that I want to look amazing for the cruise and nothing is going to stop me from reaching my goal. :)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...