I received an unexpected email last week. Shocked the heck out of me to be honest. It was from a man I dated a couple of years ago. We tried chatting back around the holidays but it got ugly and I blocked him from texting or calling me. Didn't block the email which is really unlike me. When someone pisses me off that person is pretty much blocked completely. His email was not something I even thought he would ever do. He apologized for being a complete jerk to me. Okay...that took me by surprise. He has never apologized for anything from our relationship. After his, what I felt was a genuine and sincere apology, he asked me to go see Michael Buble' with him. What the what??? Seriously? I was floored. I was supposed to go see MB with him 2 years ago but our relationship ended just before the concert. After a lot of thinking about whether I should go with him I decided to take a leap of faith. He has told me that he does not expect anything from me other than to relax and enjoy myself. I know this man and when he says he is going to take care of everything...that is exactly what he means. I also know that he will be a perfect gentleman. He has his moments of being a complete and utter ass but if there is one thing I know about him it's that he is a gentleman. I know that he will treat me with respect and complete consideration. He knows that I want more out of a relationship than what he can offer. He is okay with that and said that just being friends with me is enough. I may sound completely naive but I believe him. So...in 2 weeks I will be having a great weekend with a nice dinner and seeing Michael Buble'.
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...