I want to thank Tigger for introducing me to the dailyOM. I absolutely love the emails I get everyday from them. Most have some bearing on my life and how to view things around me. My life was so fouled up and fouled up for a very long time. After purging a lot of things out of my life...namely friends who were toxic to my mental health and well being...things are amazing now. I've found that I do not "need" to allow people to treat my like crap...just so I could have friends. I did that with a few people and I was miserable. I completely short changed myself in so many areas of my life. Men and friends being the main ones.
I'm not saying my life is perfect now. Gosh no. Far from it. What I can say is that I've found my boundries and I know when to put my foot down and say "I will not tolerate the way you are treating me". Some people from my past have not been too pleased with my new outlook and how I will accept treatment from others and they want nothing to do with me. The friends who are still around are very proud of me and see major changes in who I am.
Here is an example of how I have changed...: Saturday I got an email from a guy who has been emailing me off and on for a month. I agreed to meet him for a drink at Black Angus. I got there before him so I ordered an iced tea (not alcohol) and waited for him. He showed up and within 2 minutes of him sitting down he started chewing me out for not returning calls or emails. I told him that I've been busy and I was sorry. He said "Sorry is a cop out!!! I want a reason why!!!" His voice was not lowered if you know what I mean. I told him that I don't have a reason why. Just life and I know it was rude and I was sorry. He still wouldn't accept that. He said that he had written me an email Friday night chewing me out and he was pissed. I told him that he should have sent it since Friday sucked for me anyway. He kept on with telling me he wouldn't accept sorry from me and was demanding a reason why. During his tirade he stopped and said "Fine...I won't say anymore because you aren't talking!" I said "I'm listening..." He told me I could then respond and what was I thinking. I said "I'm thinking I want to get up and leave". He said that he was sure I was and would I like to order some appetizers now. WTH??? HUH??? After taking a sip off of my iced tea...I said "I'm not staying...I'm leaving." I grabbed my coat and purse and walked out. I didn't even put my coat on and it was damn cold outside. I just wanted out of there. All of this happened within 10 minutes of him getting there.
Pretty impressive huh? A year ago I would have suffered through the date and put up with his crap. I was very proud of myself. Granted...I was pissed for wasting my time but at least I got up and walked out. I should have waited and ordered an expensive drink AND food....then walked out. The dumbass...
So there ya have it...the exciting world of Tracey. LOL
I'm not saying my life is perfect now. Gosh no. Far from it. What I can say is that I've found my boundries and I know when to put my foot down and say "I will not tolerate the way you are treating me". Some people from my past have not been too pleased with my new outlook and how I will accept treatment from others and they want nothing to do with me. The friends who are still around are very proud of me and see major changes in who I am.
Here is an example of how I have changed...: Saturday I got an email from a guy who has been emailing me off and on for a month. I agreed to meet him for a drink at Black Angus. I got there before him so I ordered an iced tea (not alcohol) and waited for him. He showed up and within 2 minutes of him sitting down he started chewing me out for not returning calls or emails. I told him that I've been busy and I was sorry. He said "Sorry is a cop out!!! I want a reason why!!!" His voice was not lowered if you know what I mean. I told him that I don't have a reason why. Just life and I know it was rude and I was sorry. He still wouldn't accept that. He said that he had written me an email Friday night chewing me out and he was pissed. I told him that he should have sent it since Friday sucked for me anyway. He kept on with telling me he wouldn't accept sorry from me and was demanding a reason why. During his tirade he stopped and said "Fine...I won't say anymore because you aren't talking!" I said "I'm listening..." He told me I could then respond and what was I thinking. I said "I'm thinking I want to get up and leave". He said that he was sure I was and would I like to order some appetizers now. WTH??? HUH??? After taking a sip off of my iced tea...I said "I'm not staying...I'm leaving." I grabbed my coat and purse and walked out. I didn't even put my coat on and it was damn cold outside. I just wanted out of there. All of this happened within 10 minutes of him getting there.
Pretty impressive huh? A year ago I would have suffered through the date and put up with his crap. I was very proud of myself. Granted...I was pissed for wasting my time but at least I got up and walked out. I should have waited and ordered an expensive drink AND food....then walked out. The dumbass...
So there ya have it...the exciting world of Tracey. LOL