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Amazing when you go to the source

I just got off of the phone with the one woman I try to not talk to. K's stepmother. I had called her father and got his voicemail. It's October and he is usually gone hunting. When I spoke with the SM I found out something quite interesting. Seems that the blatant disregard for rules is not just in my home. It's in theirs also. The SM is a nurse and sometimes she is on-call. A duh statement right? Apparently that doesn't matter with K. Last time she was at their house she snuck the phone into her bedroom and was making phone calls after 10pm. Excuse me??? That is a no-no in my home and from what I know of her father...it's the same rule. No late night phone calls. Especially when someone is on-call for their job. I asked the SM to please keep the lines of communication open with me as I am very worried about K. I told her that I've read some emails that K has written about her boyfriend and her which are very concerning to me. I also asked that they be on the same page as I am with the grounding because this needs to be stopped now. She said she has 3 teenagers at home so she understands. When I mentioned Myspace she stopped me and said that K will not be allowed on the computer. I told her that K is grounded for 2 weeks and then explained in more detail why. The only thing that is saving K's butt this weekend at his house is her birthday party. If it wasn't for that I have a feeling she wouldn't be doing anything at all.

Last night when I picked her up from volleyball she wanted to know why I wasn't in a good mood. When I told her that I don't appreciate getting calls at work telling me that she is in trouble again. Her mood went from happy to completely pissed off. She was informed that she was grounded for 2 weeks which means no phone and no computer. I told her that she will do her chores and then I will make a list of things for her to do around the house. Once that was said she tried to justify her actions and telling me that even the teacher who called me thinks the rule is stupid. K went on to inform me that other kids will hold hands and kiss in the halls or rooms but they don't get in trouble. I don't really care about the other kids. My concern is K. She is developing a complete disregard for the rules and it has to be stopped. She did not like me much when I told her that. I was smart though and the last thing I said to her before we got home was "You will NOT take your anger out on me, J, or the dog. You will NOT slam doors or throw anything." Of course she had a smartassed comment. I repeated what I said to her and that was the end of the conversation. I'm seriously worried about her. I understand teen angst but she is going beyond that. She is mean and will kick the dog, yell at J for no reason, talk back to adults, lie and the list goes on. I'm hoping that getting her on some form of medication to balance her out with the periods and mood swings will help. Right now...it's the only thing I have to hold on to.

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