Don't even tell me ya'all don't remember that song. It's on the radio right now and I'm remembering when life was so much easier. No worries other than the Friday night game and dances at the civic center. Being 17 was such an amazing year for me. I loved being carefree and living life to the fullest. I had a lot of friends, my drivers license, a car and my parents would give me money for gas, going out and clothes. No bills and no expenses I had to pay on my own. Yes...I was spoiled. I didn't have to work and could sleep in on the weekends without kids or a dog yelling at me. Medical concerns weren't even part of my thought processes. Now it's almost 25 years later and those carefree, no responsibility days are long gone.
Last night I was laying in bed thinking about where my life is heading in the next few months. Never in my 41 years did I imagine taking the road I am on. Don't get me wrong...I'm not regretting making the decision I have made. I won't lie though...it's overwhelming sometimes. I'm relieved to be getting the MRI and then scheduling the surgery. Relieved and a bit scared. Ok...a lot scared. I know I will be living without breasts for a little while and that is going to be a mindtrip in and of itself. I do plan on getting reconstruction so thankfully the mindtrip won't be for the rest of my life. When I do my monthly BSE I can still feel the original lump that started me on this trip but...I can now feel the lump that the doctor found in March. Then I get to the right breast. Nothing there. At least nothing that shouldn't be. It's so weird. I know...TMI. LOL
Life takes unexpected turns. Some good. Some not so great. It's the not so great ones we really need to take a look at and learn to turn it into a positive. Life will be so much more pleasant if we do.
Last night I was laying in bed thinking about where my life is heading in the next few months. Never in my 41 years did I imagine taking the road I am on. Don't get me wrong...I'm not regretting making the decision I have made. I won't lie though...it's overwhelming sometimes. I'm relieved to be getting the MRI and then scheduling the surgery. Relieved and a bit scared. Ok...a lot scared. I know I will be living without breasts for a little while and that is going to be a mindtrip in and of itself. I do plan on getting reconstruction so thankfully the mindtrip won't be for the rest of my life. When I do my monthly BSE I can still feel the original lump that started me on this trip but...I can now feel the lump that the doctor found in March. Then I get to the right breast. Nothing there. At least nothing that shouldn't be. It's so weird. I know...TMI. LOL
Life takes unexpected turns. Some good. Some not so great. It's the not so great ones we really need to take a look at and learn to turn it into a positive. Life will be so much more pleasant if we do.