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Vodka and a straight jacket anyone?

If you have the above please send them to me. I am a mom to an almost 14 year old girl. She has a boyfriend whom I have yet to meet. He did get help get her in trouble today. They were holding hands at school and that is a no-no. This was the second time they were caught. A referral soon followed. Detention will be going hand in hand with that referral. That referral also warranted a phone call to me here at work. I'm a pissed off mom.

My daughter is spiraling out of hand at this point. Her boyfriend is touching her in places no 14 year old should be touching. Friends are daring her to touch his...dare I say it....balls while they are in between classes. She is talking about making out with him with her friends. Am I worried? Oh you have no idea. She is working very hard on obtaining a reputation at school and it won't be a good one.

I was informed by my teenager yesterday that she is embarrassed by me and the fact that we are poor. She is angry at me because I have been preoccupied with my health for the past few months. She is angry at me because we live in a single wide trailer. She is angry at me because I breathe. I asked my boss when was it that I became satan. He said "The day she turned 13." Lovely.

She is pushing me to points where honestly I have no clue what to do. I know I need to get her emotional roller coaster under control. It is complete madness the week before she starts her period. I'm going to take her to the doc and see if we can't fix this. The stress is just too much to deal with. It isn't affecting only me but Jordin. She is afraid of her own sister and will give in to her just to keep the peace. I'm getting to the same point. We try to stay away from her or not say anything that we think or know will piss her off. Talk about walking on eggshells all of the time. It's just insane. I hate being on a roller coaster when it comes to my kid and her emotions. One minute she is fine. The next we have plunged into the darkest abyss I have ever been in. I'm losing my daughter and I need to get her back. I'm just hoping that the doc can do something. If not...my family is going to fall apart. I can't let that happen. I just can't.

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