Ok...I made a mistake. Not a huge one but one nonetheless. I was so ticked at Kim and poor treatement of me and my children that I wrote a scathing...although very truthful...post in my lovinstitch blog. Was writing it a mistake? No. It helped me vent and release some of the anger I had. Was it a mistake not deleting it? Absolutely. Not because Kim read it but because it was something very blunt and brutally honest. Something that shouldn't have been posted. Period. Will I make excuses for what I did? No. I'm better than that. I made a mistake. I'm human. I received a threatening email from Kim last night and an email from her fiance telling me I was a piece of sh*t among other expletives. He also called my cell and left a trash mouthed voicemail. I really didn't expect much less from all of it. I'm not perfect. I made a mistake. I have fixed the mistake and in all honesty....I should have deleted lovinstitch a long time ago. I just didn't want to let it go. I believe last night was God's way of saying "Ok Tracey. It's time for you to say goodbye". My faith was thrown in my face last night. Again...I didn't expect anything else from them. Last time I heard....Jesus had it thrown in his face also. Same with the diciples and ever Christian since then. I'm ok. I finally faced God last night and asked for His guidance in my life. Without Him...I am nothing. :)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...