Praise God and pass the pizza!!! My test isn't this Saturday. More time to study and kick some serious hiney when I do take the test. That my friends is a God thing. LOL I started crying this evening when I was studying. It's all so overwhelming and it got to me. I couldn't help it. I chatted with Nell a bit this evening and she helped me out....doesn't she always? :) I got an email tonight that was a blessing and encouragement for me. It said "Jesus said that if we have faith as small as a mustard seed...we can move mountains". This came from someone who knows nothing of the stress about this test. I needed to hear that. I know I will pass this. I know the material and what I don't know or remember...I will be able to study this coming week. I just need to get the faith thing kicked into gear. Everyone else has faith in me...now I need to have it. If I don't...I'm dead in the water with this. Failing is not an option.
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...