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Day 16

 Well...I can tell a bit of a difference in my world view.    I have some moments of light and I'm enjoying it.  However, yesterday and today are pretty dark.  Friday was dark as well.  I'm hoping and praying that those dark days will eventually go away.  I'm still afraid of the light but slowly starting to embrace it.  I did notice something though.  I haven't given a 2nd thought to The Monster.  He is becoming nothing but a distant memory.  I did see a recent photo of him and all I could think was "Seriously?"  A man who belittled me, demeaned me, condemned me and treated me like I was the most hideous thing he had ever seen has now become what he said I was.  He is bald, he isn't remotely attractive and he is fat.  I guess karma does come around.  Sometimes it happens in ways we didn't think of but in the grand scheme of things...the fact that he is everything he said I was...well that is revenge enough for me. 






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