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Day 19

Good grief I feel like I'm on a roller coaster and not the fun kind.  It doesn't help that I have to struggle with eating.  I had the bug back in August and my taste has gone all wonky.  Anything that has protein in it, red meat being the worst, makes me gag.  It tastes like it's soured or just full on rotten.  Can't eat eggs, peanut butter, chicken, pork.  What's weird...I can't eat potatoes.  WTH?  I love potatoes and they are gag worthy.  Add a nauseous tummy from my meds and we just have a mess.  The positive side of it?  I'm losing weight.  :)

On a more positive note, my house is now listed.  I've made the decision to sell and get out from under the stress of maintaining a house and a yard.  I work too much during the summer to even give my yard the attention it needs.  With my full time job and then a 2nd job at the track, I can't do it.  Plus, at 55 years old, it's just way too much work for just me.  I'm an empty-nester so it's time to downsize and get into something smaller and manageable.  Am I terrified of making a big life change?  Absolutely.  Will I stress and struggle with it?  Absolutely.  Will I be much happier once it's all over?  A HUGE ABSOLUTELY!  Life is getting better.  Baby steps, Tracey.  Keep taking baby steps and one day you will be happy with who you are and where you are.  The Monster will be nothing more than a horrible and distant nightmare. 



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