Do you ever just want to withdraw from life for awhile? Right now I just want to curl up on my couch for the next week. No work, no friends...no nothing. Just me and my DVD's. I know where all of this is coming from. My kids are gone for starters. I miss them like the dickens and it's driving me crazy. I have 2 weeks to go before they are home again. Well...J will be home. K has to go to her fathers for 3 weeks after she gets back. A visit she really doesn't care to go on. Another reason for this...I'm out of estrogen. I need to get my script refilled. Does it to me everytime. Today I did absolutely nothing. Well...laundry and watched movies. I just didn't have it in me to face the world today. I took a nap late in the evening so that little mistake will cost me until late tonight. I've been talking to a few friends and all of them agree that I should consider writing. A couple of them think I should write either short stories or a novel. With how my life has gone...I could write a pretty good fact based fiction novel. :) We will see how it goes. I'll go get an el cheapo journal at the $$ Tree and start writing out some experiences and see where that takes me. My friend, Spencer, said he would help me out. With Laine being a published author...I'm sure I can get her input also. Who'da thunk it? Me a writer. LOL
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...