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Only 2 1/2 days and my babies will be home. Well...they will be in the same town I am in. Poor K has to go to her fathers for 3 weeks. That is a subject I will leave alone.
I've been so bored these past 2 1/2 weeks. Nothing to really do but sit around and watch the grass grow. I did do the dishes and cleaned up my living room. That is something...right? Criminey I miss my kids. I don't think that they need to leave for that long of a period again. Mom said that the girls are getting fussy. She agrees that it's time for them to come home. I do not know what I would do if I didn't have my kids. I'm not married or dating anyone. I don't have a lot of money to go do things. I need my kids. They are a great source of entertainment. :) I never thought I would ever been a person who would become so attached to a person. WOW....am I ever attached to K and J. Life is full because of them.

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