Frick frick frickity frick!!! I got a call from my gyno's nurse yesterday. Seems that he wants me to go see a general surgeon. Oh joy...oh rapture!!! Not really. The last freaking time I was referred to a general surgeon I had surgery the same day!!! I'm doing everything I can to keep my mind occupied with something other than this stupid lump in my left boob!!! Do you know that you become increasingly aware of your boobs when there is something wrong with them? Huh? Did ya??? I went shopping last night...as we all know that is a great way to get your mind off of ugly things. Well it just made things worse. I wanted to get a suntea jug. The kind that have the little spigot in them. Do you think I found one? NO!!! Only good thing about last night was I bought a new summery-springy kind of suit for a wedding I'm going to in a couple of weeks and a new skirt which may end up taking the place of the summery-springy suit. I must admit I did quite well with my purchases. The suit was regularly $50 and I got it for $4. The skirt was regular $17.00 and I got that for $4 also. All brand new stuff. Not thrift store bargains. Sadly...none of the shopping helped my mood. This must really be bugging me. Shopping always helps my mood. Ah well...the appointment is the day after tomorrow. I can't stress too much until I know for sure what they are going to do....but a "general surgeon consult" certainly doesn't sound nice!!!
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...