I haven't posted in ages!!! Life has pretty much been really boring. Well...up until last night. It all started with my feeling weak and out of breath. I was having some chest pain and my left arm was going numb. I slept ok and when I got up the pain wasn't as severe. I took a nap after I got up this morning...I'm just exhaused. When I took a shower I thought I would do my monthly self exam. Mainly to rule out any lumps causing the problem. I couldn't rule out any lumps. I found one. I'm not a happy person right now. I'm going to make an appointment to get a mammogram and see my doctor. I truly don't know what is going on right now. All I know is I'm hurting and there is a lump in my left breast. I hate asking for things for myself but I could really use some prayers right now. I'm trying very hard to not be scared or think bad things. It's difficult to do. My biological mother had breast cancer pre-menopause so that is hanging over my head like a LARGE black storm cloud. I will post more when I find out what is going on with me.
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...