Never in my life have I been happier than what I was yesterday at noon thirty. My girls finally came home. Picking them up at the airport was easier than I thought it was going to be. I did have a bit of a deterrant though. We got to baggage claim and my precious J said "Mommy...where is teddy?" Teddy being her most prized possession other than the baby blanket I made for her. Oh good grief....she had dropped it somewhere. So...being the wonderful and loving mommy that I am...I went back to the ticket counter, got another pass, went through security (which is not a speedy process) and ran towards the gate where I had picked them up. There is a good samaritian out there somewhere because while I was running towards the gates...and I was RUNNING...I looked up on a ledge just near some stairs and what do I see? TEDDY!!! Thank you God!!! So...I head back down to baggage claim and we head to the car. The rest of the trip was uneventful...thank goodness. There was one sad part to my afternoon. K had to go to her father's house and will be there for the next 3 weeks. She was none too happy about it either. But...there is something I say to her whenever she is gone for longer than a weekend. I ask her "When I'm not near you...where will I always be?" She replies "In my heart, Mommy". This gets us through the separation. Yes...K and I are very close. We always have been and I don't ever see that changing. The rest of the afternoon went ok. Went to the church for a picnic sort of thing. J got to play on some of those blowup bouncing toys, we had hotdogs, watermelon, and homemade pie. The downfall of the evening...the stupid cooling fan on my car went belly up. In 100 degree temps...this would not be a good thing. One more doo-dad to get fixed. Ah life...never a dull moment. But...my baby is asleep and even though I don't have my oldest here...all is well within my world. If K was here...it would be perfect. I love my little family. I couldn't ask for more...
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...