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Davis High alumni...what is going on?

Wow. Another classmate death. Julie Underwood passed away December 29, 2009. I have no clue how. I'll most likely know more later this evening. I went to church with her and also high school. She was such a kind and warm person. Her voice was amazing. There was just an inner glow about her that drew you into her.

I cannot believe that another classmate passed away in 2009. Off of the top of my head I can think of 3 people. Roger from a heart attack. Shelley was brutally murdered and now Julie. What is going on with the mid 1980's classes of A.C. Davis High School??? Just the class of '85 alone has had 12 or 13 classmates pass away. Murders, suicides, medical reasons. It's starting to really freak some of us out. By average that is one classmate every other year. It's scary to think "Who is going to be next?". Life is so short. We need to make the most of it because once it's over...it's over. No second chances.

Rest In Peace Julie.

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