Life as I know it...

I love auctions. Sometimes too much. I've been a good girl lately though. My only purchase was last night. The PBS station here in town has an auction every year and they were winding it up last night. Everything was going for next to nothing. I bought a kitty package for POTO. It was a $90 value and I got it for $16. She will now have her shots, nails clipped, a physical, a carrier and a bag of food. I really like getting bargains like that. Makes things so much easier on me financially. :)

The kids went to J's friends birthday party last night. They had such a good time. I had such a nice peaceful evening. LOL I did call the parents and ask if a certain child was invited to the party. I received a resounding NO!!! I felt better knowing that. Had this child been invited my girls wouldn't have gone.

Speaking of birthday's, tomorrow is J's birthday. :( I cannot believe my baby is going to be 7 years old!!! She isn't a baby anymore. Why do they grow up so fast? Seeing how I had all my innard's removed (I know TMI LOL)....I won't be having anymore. There are days that just saddens me but then I think "AM I INSANE????" I'm almost 40 years old. I do not need to be starting over again. LOL I'm happy with just the 3 of us. Don't need to add anyone else to the mix.

Blasted cottonwoods are in full swing. Do you know what this means? ALLERGIES ARE KICKING MY BUTT!!!! My throat hurts so bad that I can't stand it. I need to move to a place where cottonwoods do not abound. Anyone know of such a place? Please? *sigh*

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