Talk about messed up!!! I was sitting here thinking about how Ronna had told me that I am a hypocrite because I am now a Christian. That made absolutely no sense to me since she was judging me on my past with who I am now. The definition of hypocrite is: The act of pretending to have beliefs, virtues and feelings that one does not truly possess. Before I became a Christian I never pretended to be one. After becoming one I never pretended to be one I was one. Where is all of this leading? I have a point...I really do. In the year 2006 if a person says they are a Christian all of a sudden they are called hypocrites, persecuted, judged and mocked. All of this BEFORE anyone gets to know them. In the year 1956 if someone said they weren't a Christian they were persecuted, judged and condemned. All of this BEFORE anyone got to know them. When did it become a crime to be a Christian? At least here in the free world? Just because a person was not a Christian all of their lives does not mean they are to be labled a hypocrite when they are finally saved. If they were doing the same things they did before finding Christ...that would make them a hypocrite. If they have turned their lives around...no one has the right to judge who they are based upon the past. Especially people who will say they are Christian but yet live within the world. Nothing turns my stomach more than those people. Look at some profiles on myspace or a personals website. How many do you see that say their religion is Christian? Now if you were to ask them about going to church, reading the bible or worshiping Christ what do you think their reply would be? I'll tell you..."Oh I don't to go church. I worship within myself." WHAT???? I have yet to figure that one out. It's like people are ashamed to say that they are not a practicing Christian. If they say they are one that will absolve them from all wrongdoing and make them a better person. Again...HUH? I will fully admit that I have not been the best Christian around. I have struggles with my faith just like everyone does. Just do not call me a hypocrite. If I were out partying , sleeping with every guy I dated and then going to church on Sunday....I would gladly accept that label and judgement. Since I don't do those things....your judgement of me is way out of line. Look in the mirror before casting judgement on me. I don't think you will like what you see looking back at you. Ok...I went on a tangent. LOL I'm done for now...;)
There are days I enjoy living my life. There are days I thoroughly hate it. Yesterday, while grocery shopping, I almost had a breakdown. Standing there in the aisle, I had to fight, with everything in me, to not start crying. Too much has been hitting me this month and I think I'm at the end of my rope. Beginning of the month, D's new wife sent me a text telling me to lose his number, email and address because I already had my chance with him. I laughed at the absurdity of everything she said in that text as it sounded like something a teenaged girl would write. I haven't wanted that man in almost 20 years, so, she is either highly jealous of his past and any woman he used to be interested in or is extremely insecure with herself and her relationship. Regardless of her mental state, I told her I was just catching up on life with him, but I will respect her request and not talk to him again. I've been told she has been married 4...