I read something today which defies all logic or at least logic how I know it. I told a few of my friends about what I read and asked them their opinions on it. All of them had the same answer. There is no logic to it at all. I know that my friends will be totally honest with their thoughts and opinions so please tell me your take on this.. "family is someone you see all the time and is someone you are close with..." I'm unsure what to think of this. If this is true then I have no family at all other than my children. My parents and brother live in CA and I see them maybe twice a year. I have a cousin who also lives in CA whom I see maybe every 4 years. I have another cousin who lives in Oklahoma and I haven't seen her since I was in 8th grade. I even have a sister in Texas whom I haven't seen for 13 years. By the above logic I have no family. If this is how it works I would certainly like to know because for 39 years I've always thought that my mom's sisters in CA were family. How sad I will be to find out that in truth they weren't. Yes my friends....you can call me a smarta$$....;) LOL
It's a struggle knowing he didn't love me and never did. To find out the things he does now for his wife? The woman who is bigger than I ever was, the woman who has been married multiple times, the woman who is tatted up and he hated tats, the woman who shows jealousy, the woman he won't keep secrets from but kept them from me, the woman who is everything he said he hated in me. Knowing all of this has made me hate him. I know it does nothing to him. It will only eat away at me but that has been happening to me for almost 20 years. I can only now admit that I hate this man with every fiber of my being. When I met him, I was in a good place. I was happy with myself, I had friends, I loved sex and I believed in love. In the almost 2 years I was with him, he destroyed every last bit of me. I know it was only 2 years but in 2 years, he obliterated every bit of who I was. Not a day went by where he didn't mentally or em...